I’ve started getting assignments now. I don’t know why however I am struggling to do them. I did know at the back of my head that this course would be harder than the last one but I didn’t see me getting so upset and stressed over the first couple of assignments. I managed to do parts of one of them now. Its just hard. Doesn’t add much encouragement when everybody starts getting unwell and yourself start feeling ill. However I am unsure if they are ill or taking time out of lessons to battle the assignments.
I don’t like having Fridays off. It makes the weekend feel like a week in itself. And in the week I get this trail of thought that I manage to clean the house, or that all the assignments will be out of the way, or I find the cure to cancer or something, but it doesn’t work will this. I shouldn’t expect this to happen at all as I keep getting sad when it doesn’t happen.
I am so happy that I have a mate to text to all the time as he made this weekend more bearable already I idol him so much. He is supportive of me weather I am at college or by mobile phone. Though I wished I could be more than mates, I know I should be grateful that he is there for me as a close best mate.
The other day at the gym I got checked out by a guy. I was rowing at the time while he scroll past me, to get a dumbbell to put on Bicep + Tricep Curl machine. I never seen somebody do that before so I watched him whilst I carried on rowing. And he kept looking over his shoulder to me. Though thinking now I don’t know if because he was checking me out or because I was staring in amazement to him like a dork. Oh well. Once my time ran out that I set, I just rushed out. I didn’t feel comfortable to chat to him.

















