Nothing much to mention about today really. I did a driving lesson which I really enjoyed but didn’t use the mirrors as much. Even though I was tried I seemed to be okay apart from pressing too hard on the gas once and nearly going into concrete, but I recovered it.
Spent rest of the day around different places, at the boring place I go to feed pound coins away to machines that supposedly dry your clothes (I think the women that runs it needs to replace the machines now) and the boring place where you buy food. I went into Sainsbury cafe with my mom and didn’t enjoy neither the muffin or the too dark hot chocolate. I’m glad that I did the shopping for her though as she wasn’t well. I also started eating normally again. Hopefully will put on some kgs that I can burn at the gym.I don’t want to burn nothingness. Oh, also got some 3D specs for when I’m not slaving away trying to catch up with assignments I lothe and wish not to do.
I was going to care about having relationships in my life again but I think I won’t brother now. It may bring in a support line and joy if I did find somebody but I don’t want any more disappointment at the moment and don’t want to get my hopes up over people, for them to reject me again. I can cope with rejection I suppose but not right now. Maybe I am doing a really bad thing by saying this but I am scared that I am getting my hopes up oversome one who I haven’t yet for years and may not like me if I even do meet up.
someone once told me if you go looking for relationships, it never happens – its usually unexpected and better just to let it happen by itself. i dont know if its true but youre likeable enough so i cant see why not
but anyway, it reminds me of another tune – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YmyR1pLDkKw
It was a moment of panic when I wrote these posts but I’m fine now. That is a nice tune that you linked to, not too sure about the sideshow but enjoyed the music.
the originals shorter and animated – its likely showing as ‘related’. its a good tune for driving altho your instructor might not like it :-/ im glad youre feeling better. have a good week eddieh
Relationships are tricky; you don’t want to set yourself up to get hurt, but at the same time, you want all the happiness you can get. Good luck with that, I hope you find the right mate
I have messed up badly. I said my feelings to someone way too early. I don’t know if I will be able to speak to them again.