I posted this on my Tumblr first and decided that it suited my blog as well. I also like to say that I am sory that I havent been spending much time on here.

Before you get annoyed with this post, I haven’t wrote thinking that I know it all, I just want to note it down for myself for when I am feeling negative again at college. I just hope you realise it depression bringing you down and you just blaming things such as assignments or people in your course. I need to remind myself that I was going though a period that one day I really loved everybody and the next I hated everyone and thought everyone was ignoring me. Anyway..

Two weeks ago was the first time that teachers yelled their heads off at me at the college which was a shock to me. Whilst I don’t approve one of the methods that was classifed as bullying (that the tutor, no surprise being rather friendly from now on), the other methods that didn’t involve attacking or forcing me to write stuff really did make me smell the coffee and somehow was the first step getting me out of this negative and depressing world that I was in.

On the day was a terrible day for me and I was in shock on what happened. I was posting on Facebook statuses that was very woe to me. And I thought that I messed up and couldn’t get back on track. But I went to Disneyland Paris and without intending to, I let go of my negativity there, I also made a promise to myself that I could do this. Every night, I was slightly kept up by thinking how I could do the assignments and when.

And now in the present, its half term and somehow I am up to date with everything. Now even though all the assignments somehow are finished doesn’t mean everything swell for me.

I am dreading doing English when I return back. I fucked it up three times now. Last time was more gutting as I was so close. I hope I can find something in me to get this grade. I know that everyone is judging me and having their eyes me on about this. If I fuck it up again, I will sadden loads including myself. It doesnt help knowing that they are shoving me into a overcrowded group due to the peaceful one not suiting my timetable. I hope things go okay.

I could understand it if I was crossing the road and didn’t see that something was approaching me or that I was walking on the road being a hazard but it wasn’t the case. It doesn’t upset me but I feel reminded of the fact my hair is the colour it is. I dislike any type of discrimination and feel like it will be a ever going battle for me due to my hair and sexuality which both things I havn’t chosen. I wouldn’t change it for anyone though, I am who I am and not some fake somebody in denial.

I sometimes get asked if I would dye my hair. I haven’t got a chip on my shoulder about my hair so why would I? Why would I set up a blog named That Ginger Guy, if I didn’t want to say to others about my hair?

My first memory of having a van going past beeping their horn and laughing was when I was in year 10 way back in school, and I was waiting for a lift and as I knew it would be sometime, arranged for the lift to be outside the school town swimming and gym centre. I popped outside for a brief moment to see if the car arrived yet and a group of tossers went past smirking, beeping their horn, and sticking their fingers up. Nice.

Actually in future, I will just put it down that they are a fan of my blog and beeping to show their support.

When I went to the lesson I noticed that hardly anyone turned up. I connect this to the fact that the couple in my class broke up the night before and nearly everyone was bunking to avoid having a awkward situation. I didn’t think that happened, I just got blanked out by quite a few people throughout  the day which made break times so fantastic. I should of spent them doing assignments really but I just didn’t feel like it.  I rather enjoyed film studies which was a first for me and I was one of the only people answering during the lesson. I getting to understand it now that there ain’t words that I can’t get my head around. I’m quite excited to doing the assignment for it. I havent worked out what it will be though but I feel I will be able to get good grades in this subject.

I rather glad that the college is taking action against the bullying that happened last Monday (the one before Disneyland Paris). I can’t mention much about it on here but basically a tutor on my course forced me to write a letter which sounds not as bad than it was as other stuff happened which can’t be mentioned. I really broke down after the morning was finished. Ever felt so low that when you cross the road, you are tempted to walking in front of a car? I had that temptation the whole journey home. I rather glad that Disneyland Paris happened as I better than I been for weeks.

Juggle Juggle or there will be trouble. I have various assignments going on right now and currently having to spend all my time doing them. I am spending some of my break from assignments writing this blog post.

Time is now Wednesday morning. I put the alarm clock on for 4am. I slept though it. I woke up at 5am. ‘Crap!’ I said loudly when I woke up. I dashed around for a couple minutes managing to down some cornflakes and orange juice. Got my mother to put my contacts in as I didn’t have enough time to do it myself. Then dashed to the college with a lift in the car. My dad didn’t help by mentioning how late I was every second. Thanks. But I dived out the car and the coach arrived. I discovered when I got on the coach that the Witney folk was right at the back and that it was roasting, I hate warm air when I am travelling as it makes me feel ill. So I didn’t say much on the coach as I didn’t have a drink with me to sip on.

Finally we arrived out the Eurostar station in London and headed for the coach parking area. However the coach had to reverse out of the entrance as the floor ramp wouldn’t come down like it meant to. This therefore annoyed road users that was near the entrance. There lots of car horn action going on. But everyone quickly got out and grabbed their bags. To the station! We got in plenty of time and had three hours waiting around.

In some of this period we went into Costa and I brought a overpriced bottle of water. I couldn’t wait to buy it anywhere else. You have to remember I was feeling unwell from the warm air that I travelled with in the coach. After that I sat on a freezing cold metal seat that froze my bum so much that I ended up standing up. After doing that for some minutes, we looked around Marks and Spencer’s food where which I nearly knocked all the stock off with my large bag on my back. I scored extra by tapping some people with it as well. I am sometimes known for being clumsy. I brought a cheaper bottle of water there that was so much more bigger than the one in Costa which made me feel gutted.

I sat down so more and noticed that one of the girls handbag had one of them big willy bears. I found it funny that we were heading to children friendly Disney with that on her bag. Little did I know I would be seeing worse later on in the trip.. Finally it was time to check in. When you check in, you have to make sure you have nothing in your pockets and that it get x ray scanned. So the trick is to put it in your jacket/hoodie to put with your bag. However I was concerned it would fall out of it. Thankfully it didn’t. Also I had to remove my belt which meant I have a groovy shifting walk to make sure they didn’t fall down the period I didnt have the belt on.

We were waiting for the train and somebody thought it would be amusing to play my rap. I was rather disappointed at the group for them to play it in front of everybody. I made this clear to them and after I stopped it, they got the message not to mention it ever again on the trip. How I wish I modified the lyrics to the rap now. Its a hit I guess with everybody though. When the train did arrive it was such a trek down the platform to get to our coach. The journey was such a long one. Three hours in fact. It was however made less boring by eating the brownies I love from the coach shop and listening to Spoitfy on my mobile.

When we arrived at Disneyland Paris train station, it got there early, and we managed to arrive at the hotel minutes before we would get there. it was booked with a different company to last year and I so glad it was as it meant that our rooms was ready to go in to straight away which meant we could settle in. I wasn’t too brothered by which bed I was on and it ended up being top bunk which worked well for me. It meant noone else used it but me. No crumbs or anything. The room linked with the other guys in my media group which was cool.

I had a day in the park which I managed to went on all the rides in one day which I was seriously chuffed about. First time I managed to do that with any theme park which I am rather shocked about. Wednesday ain’t a busy day for them it seems at this time of the year. I might do a another blog post reviewing each ride I went on. I had to go on one ride with the tutor that got me in trouble which was rather awkward. His advice of never holding on helped me not injure my back which I managed to before last time I went.  I headed back to the hotel before the others in the afternoon, had a shower, charged my phone for abit, and called home. I managed to put a different set of clothes on as well for the evening before the meeting. After the meeting, I headed out with my group.

Took ages hanging in the village trying to find a place to eat at as we had loads of different people to please with the menu. We ended up eating in the Rainforest Cafe. It such a lovely place and I regret not eating out last year. (I only ate at McDonald’s in the evenings last year.) I had a chicken burger which I admitly modified to my needs. I firstly drunk a Coke then braved up to drink cocktails. The one I loved was Tropical Toucan which had a blend of Bacardi rum, banana liqueur, orange and pineapple nectar with grenadine syrup. Yummy! I also sampled other peeps cocktails which got me more tipsy.

When we got back after another meeting we headed to the other guys room that was linked to ours and watched telly. We then went sleep in our room where I got woken up by the girls as one of the guys in my room have them a card to our room. Thankfully they just went next door and we locked the linking door after getting the card back. I had rather good sleep due to the drink.

When we headed back to the hotel, all the guys went in the same room and did some channel flicking. I love international channels. It times when you watch it that you wish you knew more than English. We watched Serect dairy of a call girl under the covers when the tutors walked in. We was rather drunk and was giggling as it was a naked scene and they thought we was watching porn. It was so funny. They asked if it was related to anything we was studying and someone said we was researching ‘Angles and viewpoints’ (a thing we did in photography) which I found rather funny at the time. The tutors laughed their way out of the room. I was really really tired and headed to my room pretty soon after that. It was really late.

Now it was Friday morning. I got too drunk and slept over the alarm but it ended up being okay. Woke in time for the meeting and was so great we had to pack up for 11am so much later than last year 9:30am. This meant I had a shower and packed up slowly after breakfast where I popped my coffee cherry. I got such a buzz from drinking it. We shoved our bags in storage and over the day in the park we hanged with the Witney lot which was really nice people and had a laugh with. Rode every ride again. In the afternoon we got our bags back and after spending long time sitting on the station floor, checked in. I prefer checking in there as they had a more chilled out style.

On the journey back on the train, it had to make a stop at a French station to restart the whole thing we meant we had no lights for a period which wasnt that bad as we had a nice view of Paris. I was also amazed that they had double decker trains which I spotted. Also we made a joke with this lonely man with bags was waiting for a bus which amused us whilst we was waiting. When the train arrived back, we had a few people which included the one of the tutors which thought they lost their passport but ended up finding it which delayed us setting off for abit. It wasnt that long on the coach till we was back at the lovely college. It was a shock how colder it was then France to me. I wasnt expecting ice on the ground and slipped over on the way walking to lift home.

Thats my  report of Disneyland Paris. You can read someone else trip report now.

I need to work on a VT for the the first themed show we’re are doing which is kids show. My group was thinking to either do a thing on Animals or a make your own sort of thing. I am looking forward being bossy as a floor manager on that show. In a fortnight its a Music show which I am a Prompter, fortnight after that its a Video game show and I’m a guest , and then its finishes with a Chat show with me operating camera two.  I am actually looking forward to doing this sizzle and hoping I can get a good grade on it.

I am rather happy for two reasons, I am slowly catching up on the assignments that are overdue and I actually got a trip to the local supermarket with some peeps I haven’t met in ages last night. It was a nice surprise and my mom was happy I didn’t die in a terrible road accident because of the icy roads. I love what my mom thinks of the driving skills my mates have.

I suppose I should say something about Christmas. I loved having all the family together as I haven’t seen some family members for months, the presents was a nice bonus extra. On the day, I felt that my dad was at times saying remarks that wound me up alittle but that all I am going to mention here as thinking about it winds me up. I was annoyed that a game I brought as a present didn’t work after all the effort I put in to getting it. Shit happens though and you just have to move with the times as the saying goes.

I think that I could wish for many things in my life but I learnt something. Aiming for things is okay as it only drives you forward to get the goal you want but you not going to get it if you sulk and get all sad that you haven’t yet got it. I know sometimes you have no choice but to be upset but when you have a choice to just keep going, I am going to take it. I have been really worn down in recent months with events with health in the family but as the family health improves, the more I feel happier and in focus as I was before. I am not sure if that makes any sense as I am writing this half one in the morning but if it does have the meaning I meant it to have, its all good.

I hoped to do a year review like I did before once but I am unsure that I will manage to do it before new year. I still have some overdue assignments left that I need to fit in so I will be doing them when I can. I am looking forward for tomorrow and I hope I won’t have the same boredom and loneliness I had today.

What I am reflecting about today you ask me (with a Santa hat on as you have the festive feeling)? Well first I have to mention about yesterday. I finally got a haircut as it got mega long and I mean so long that it started covering my eyes. I was very tempted to find then print a cute guy hair style from a tumblr and ask for their haircut as it was long enough to do what I wanted but as I was only having the haircut as somebody else cancelled I just had my normal cut. After that I headed into Didcot. It was worthwhile trip as I had the nicest hot chocolate from Boswells with cake then I had my first shopping spree in Body Shop. I made the mistake of mentioning hair wax as she nicely brought out the whole range and told me how to use each one which I actually enjoyed. I only intended to get one thing but I ended up with loads and had to get my mom to fund me with more money. I was happy that she gave me more.

Let focus on to today. My mother was scared of going out in the cold with ice everywhere as she have massive fears of falling over so I went with her to the town centre to help her. I love popping into the local perfume shop as it like going into time machine. Proper oak surroundings. Anyway I was in there because my mom needed something for my dad’s present. It was a great excuse for me to smell all of the latest manly smells. After that I popped into WHSmith cause I won a book token from the college that I wanted to use. I brought two autobiography’s, Chris Evens plus Ant & Dec. They are the only sort of book  I read and its people that have a media career. I can’t wait to hear about working at Radio 1 and ITV1.

This evening I have wrapped presents I forgot to wrap last night. I only have one present per a family member as I am skint and had to beg for moneys to get them. I seriously need to work somewhere as I feel bad living out of my parents pockets all of the time and want to be more independent. I don’t want to be busy with work though and mess my grades for college though. I am not good with balancing that type of stuff. My sister came down for Christmas which is nice but I was well worried she was going to slide her car on the ice. She noticed the gift I had forDad was badly wrapped and it bugged her so she kindly rewrapped it for me.

College have finished for Christmas now and I’m rather glad. I am fed up with the course as it is and was getting annoyed however I am just going to do it whilst trying not take notice how badly run it currently is. Least I have finished the hardest assignment and I can get the others done before I return without much effort.

I have seem to lost the addiction to posting my life on this blog, and I don’t know if thats a bad thing or not. I will just record things like Disneyland Paris, and other major trips out like that from now on. My tumblr will be carried on being updated which you can access in the links in the header.

The gym sent me a text today about referring friends to them to have 12 days of free gym use and it reminded me of what I wrote for a eassy. I’m posting it here for you guys to read.

Recently my mates started going to the gym and they encouraged me to join as well. I have never been to a gym before and was a bit worried that it might not be something I liked very much, but as I needed to get fitter and needed a social outlet I agreed to do the trial session and see what it was like.

Dressed in my tracksuit and trainers I turned up on the day and was asked to fill in some forms which asked about what I wanted to get out of using the gym and also my medical history. Once these were completed the instructor discussed what I had written. He then weighed me and worked out my BMI.

Then I was taken round the equipment and shown how to use it effectively and safely. Some of the machines were to work on strength and some to improve cardio-vascular output. Every few weeks there is a review so you can go over how you are doing and if you want to change what equipment you use, with proper advice as to how to use it properly and safely.

I booked and did three gym sessions with a instructor as part of the induction so they could calculate my routine. Since finishing these sessions, I been hooked to the place ever since.

Before starting to exercise you are encouraged to warm up and do some stretches. This is so you don`t injure yourself whilst doing a routine.

My typical routine is that I first warm up on the exercise bike for around ten minutes, but most days it end up to overall doing six minutes on it. Then my super set begins. For people who don’t know what a super set is, it when you do a certain number of sets on one machine and do another amount of sets on a different machine, and then go back and forth the two machines a certain amount of times.

I particularly like the rowing machine which makes me feel really good after I have been rowing for thirty minutes. I also like using the machines which help me develop some muscle such as the Bicep / Tricep machine, Body Press, and etc.

I have been pleasantly surprised about how good I have felt after a session in the gym. I think that the reason I feel so good is that it helps get rid of my stress. I have been told it produces endorphins which are the bodies natural feel good hormones. This is prefect after a day of college to release the stress that built over the day.

I am glad I took my mates up on the offer of joining the gym and intend making it something I will make time for in my daily life for a long time. It’s only a hour of a day which makes improves your mood. Before going I didn’t realise how varied the people who go are and that the atmosphere would be okay.

What did I do in the Radio drama lesson you may be asking? In this session we recorded the group that is doing a radio drama to put in a seriously simple terms, about a fight over breakfast cereal. I think its rather well written and its amusing as it have loads of comedy as it have well known TV and Film characters in it.  The  set up for recording the radio dramas is abit like a live tv set up where there is two different rooms. One room for the studio and the other room to do stuff with the output. We had a camera and the microphones feeding to the room I was in as they was plugged into the snake (a extension lead for video/audio really). We could give them directions to what to do with the talk back headset. It was good fun for me however my neck hurt as I kept having to look over my shoulder to see the telly as the computer was facing a different wall. Why you need to look at both things you may ask? Cause I had no script downstairs so I needed to see who was preforming so I knew what levels I need to play with.

Abingdon at pace (took by me)

Lets start with last night to explain what I am talking about.I am finding it hard to think what to write at the moment as I feel like I am going though a writers block. Anyway last night I found it hard to get to sleep, don’t know why, maybe I was thirsty or I had something on my mind, but I did eventually got to sleep at like towards 2am. About a hour or so later I hear this massive thud and a screaming sound. I woke up seriously confused what just happened. I dashed to my parents room and it turned out that my mom fainted. She didn’t know where she was or what was going on around her. The fainting is all due to her having this kidney disease that her blood pressure is very low. I don’t want to be posting her personal life on her but that what happened. Anyway, that meant that I hardly had any sleep.

In the morning my phone was ringing but it was my mom calling me as a alarm clock, I slept though my actual alarm clock again. I looked at the time and panicked I wouldn’t have enough time to get up, and was very tried. I chatted to my mom and she was trying to do things she wasn’t meant to be doing, trying to dash around. I got really concerned for her and told her to get to bed. Just as well she got back as she did as could hardly breath. Anyway, I can’t really post more about that as my mom deserves not to have her life on here.

But it turned out that even though as much I wanted to go to college, I seriously was needed at home and also there was the fact that I looked like a zombie from lack of sleep. I already tried walking to college half asleep and I nearly got run over. I just couldn’t confederate with that much lack of sleep. So I decided that I sleep in till the time the nurse arrives and take it from there.

I needed to contact the college that I wasn’t coming in, so I searched in my bag for my college id. It wasn’t in the front pocket. So I looked in the rest of the bag. I then thought to myself, ‘Oh bugger, that card have all the contact details on it’. I then remembered that I sent a text before to the college, so looked at my phone and it was there. The problem was that the phone didn’t allow me to edit that message unless I forwarded it. This meant that I had to write the phone number on to my hand and then re-enter it all.  I had the wrong teacher name on it but I just went along with it as I couldn’t be brothered to go though anything else like that today.

I had the task of getting myself breakfast. I was thinking eggy bread but there was a problem. They was nothing stocked in the place. My mom used to do all the shopping and she can’t now. I had to wait till lunchtime for my dad to arrive at lunchtime so I could eat something. He gave me a werid look when he did arrive and was like ‘Why you looking at me like this?’. It turned out that the hand I was resting on was the same one I written the number on and it was all over my face. I wish he just said that though.

Anyway,  I am about to get myself dinner and then I am tidying my room. If I have lost that college id, I think that I will be murdered by the college. No jokes.

Anyway less about last night, what happened today? I in the end managed to arrive early to college because of super ill super mom gave me a lift. It felt strange as after all did wake up late and also because I only had enough time before I left to quickly wash and change clothes. Not eat or drink.

I had a good day really, I did end up having a laugh during the breaktimes but wasn’t didn’t feel as happy as I did the past few days. I love how everybody bonded really well in my group. Its a different bond to how it was last year. It hard to say about it. Everybody gets on but I suppose nobody gives advice about assignments as they did last year. I don’t think I be winning the award for team leader this year because of how things are with the group. I often don’t get picked by the others for groups anymore.

Assignments are a nightmare for me right now. I hope I can catch up. I am dreading tomorrow because of this. If I mention it, I will get someone watching me work and asking me loads of questions on if I did this or that which really annoys me. I don’t want that. Makes me feel quite small if anyone does that to me. But they are being kind and taking their time to help me so I don’t have the courage to tell them to go away.

Why I did I admit my feelings for someone? I am well embarrassed now and don’t know if I will have the guts to use Skype ever again. If I waited it could of been something and its not going to happen now.

I had a terrible day and this have now happened. I don’t know if I will even turn up tomorrow. I really want to forget the past nights I had been chatting as I just will get upset I ruined it. I was really nervous and took loads of courage to say it. I hope that the hurting I am currently feeling goes in the morning. I am a stupid person sometimes. I feel like the guy that people like as a mate but nothing else.

Spent rest of the day around different places, at the boring place I go to feed pound coins away to machines that supposedly dry your clothes (I think the women that runs it needs to replace the machines now) and the boring place where you buy food. I went into Sainsbury cafe with my mom  and didn’t enjoy neither the muffin or the too dark hot chocolate. I’m glad that I did the shopping for her though as she wasn’t well. I also started eating normally again. Hopefully will put on some kgs that I can burn at the gym.I don’t want to burn nothingness. Oh, also got some 3D specs for when I’m not slaving away trying to catch up with assignments I lothe and wish not to do.

I was going to care about having relationships in my life again but I think I won’t brother now. It may bring in a support line and joy if I did find somebody but I don’t want any more disappointment at the moment and don’t want to get my hopes up over people, for them to reject me again. I can cope with rejection I suppose but not right now. Maybe I am doing a really bad thing by saying this but I am scared that I am getting my hopes up oversome one  who I haven’t yet for years and may not like me if I even do meet up.

Why did I pick up more than one 3D glasses when I know that I only need one? As I said in my last post of today I picked up 3d glasses but I feel bad that I have eight of them now after looking at forums on how they have all ran out of stock. I seriously only needed one and the other ones are going to be wasted. I suppose I could hand some of them out in college.

Why wasn’t he online tonight? I wonder has it got something to do with me or was he just being social as hardly anyone was online. Am I getting too obsessed about him? I mean why am I getting bugged that he wasn’t online, as he has every right not to be, just like I do.

What do people find funny about me? People say that I am funny even when sometimes I am being serious Are they laughing with me or at me?

I don’t know why I wasn’t with it this morning and I don’t think I was awake when I got out of bed and on my way to college. When I was chatting to my parents on the way out, nothing made sense. I was all confused and puzzled. So I went on my morning walk as normal and so far crossing the road was fine. But I was nearly at college and was putting my coat away as I walked across the road. I looked up and heard a horn. I was panicking and shaking. Thank god she put her brakes on. I swore loudly and felt sorry for this mom plus her children by a nearby house who was about to do a school run. I don’t think I glared for long enough to understood that she was coming nor did I hear the engine.

I was so shaken up by that but however I had to get on at college without making a fuss. I mean I mentioned it to one of my mates and he just went on about a totally different subject. Glad to know that when I nearly get knocked over by a car that there is people looking out for me.

I was glad that I did make the effort to turn up however as like I said, I now got a idea what the eassy is, and I used the live tv stuff today. I got taught about how licking the XLR cables (the cable that you use for microphones / cameras ) or putting two together is a bad plan as each cable carries 48 volts. Even putting two microphones near each other could be a bad idea.

It was brand new flat screens (to view input/output), mixing desk etc and we was the first group to use it. Its one of them moments that you understand why you are doing the course, understand the dream you have of the future. The group was as excited as I was to be allowed to set everything up and play with it safely. It was cool to see and talk to downstairs and vice visa. That was one of my favourite things I did today. We need to know all of this however because of the radio drama that we are recording.

The radio drama that my group is doing is piratey and as a group we are writing it so you can understand why the storyline slash the characters are rather strange. I will post more about it when it is recorded towards the end of November and will be posted on here.

Yesterday was really brilliant and it started off by heading into Reading with my sister. On the way there I shown off my music collection to her as it makes me feel more manly. Well I just wanted her to listen to some tracks of a unsigned band that I am rather fond of. She liked them which was nice. However her car speakers seem to be louder more on the left and it bugged me alittle.

When we arrived in the car park, we started to wonder around the city centre. Some of the highlights is when I noticed that Two Seasons have a more massive store (than Derby) that is near to Footlocker. So we looked at there hat collection as they like there hats it seems. The other highlight is that I ate at Nandos which I discovered that I love the place. The food is soo good. Yum. We went around other clothes shop which I felt the pain of not having a job as I really wanted to buy everything. My sister didn’t manage to have time to buy me a present so we went into HMV where which she got me a Alfred Hitchcock dvd collection. I wanted that for so long.

In the evening I got invited by wanted of her friends to watch some fireworks. I had a massive laugh there as firstly I received a pink cake, played with sparklers, and watched some fireworks. I got handed some cards which I opened today and I like one of them as it had a nice message in it. I will post it up later. It was a nice ending to the day.

So back to today. I didn’t do that much apart having a meal and a Bud at the pub and received my mom presents. She couldn’t get much as she unwell but I loved the clothes, toilette, and tin of sweets she brought me. I thought it was nice. Anyway, I better do some college work that I been avoiding for the whole weekend but least it means that I don’t have to get concerned about it.

In the past I have avoided the subject of my sexuality as it normally means talking about people in my life, and people in my life read this blog and I’ll only end upsetting somebody if I did that. Well I am going there now as it not about other people and only about myself. If you don’t wanna read a post talking about me being gay or keen to post homophobic crap, just go away, you only be wasting your time.

On Sunday, it will be my eighteenth birthday. I will be legal drinking age, I will be able to look at dodgy content on the internet without lying about my age, and I will be able to sign forms. Fantastic. But I feel something is missing. I don’t really care too much about that stuff. I hardly drink alcohol, I cannot say that I don’t often look at guys on the internet (cause believe me I do ) but hardly look at porn, and the signing forms bit. Well thats scary, before you had the legal protection of parents and you out there alone now.

What really matters to me is that when I am growing up that I have somebody in my life to be with, that I love and loves me back, that I can trust to talk with about things, somebody to cuddle when you feeling low. That sort of thing. And it really concerns me that everybody I loved in that way doesn’t feel anything back. I haven’t been in any relationship. Nada. Zero. Nothing. Well one that was a secret but just carry on reading.

Well you might wonder why I am mentioning anything of this. Well fear not,let me explain that. After speaking to various people over the internet (on things like Messenger and Twitter), it became clear what might been going wrong so far, well my theory.

Its goes like this. After losing confidence after getting dumped without being told that I was or having somebody giving me the impression that they loved me plus cared for me but then telling me that their straight, have meant that I sort of backed into a plain personality where I made sure you couldn’t tell I was gay on at least first impressions. And if you have gay people thinking that you are straight, you never going to have that relationship you want so badly.

And I’ve done this for such along period, I am finding it hard to be who want to and have things I want like a more openly gay social life and a relationship. Maybe I am thinking too much into this. Maybe I have to work slowly at getting this and you can’t expect to see a hint of this happening overnight. I would be more camp but I forced myself not be over the past year, it hard to.

I don’t know why some folks think that I have chosen my sexuality. It brings some hurdles that heterosexual people don’t have to jump though.  And its not like I haven’t got enough hurdles to jump. I don’t want to go deeply into this but you can’t just walk up to a guy and expect to get his phone number like maybe you would expect if you was a guy walking up to a girl. Or I don’t know, you can’t be gay without having people asking what its like to be gay. That question is stupid, ‘its like your life but replace the girl you fancy with a guy’ is my reply.

I need to be more gay.

Update 1: After reading a tumblr post from somebody in my group at college. Maybe some of this is related to a Avoidance personalty disorder? I mean, I think I tick some of the boxes on that wiki.  Meh. My brain hurts from thinking all day and I am bored. Milkshake.

Update 2: Amazed that a blog that I follow have posted pretty much what I said in my post, I relate to everything he said. I think you should give it read.

Eugh.. I can’t carry on writing like that, however. I don’t know how I am going to remake a children fairytale for radio drama.. Once I finished writing this I need to crack on with that work. Anyway, I will get back on subject. Yesterday had a good moments. Some of these good moments was as I already said, listening on the coach a prank call (I’m allowed to have my immature moments dammit) to the sex advice line, watching this strange video of a naked couple passing a inflatable ball (even though a creepy old man was grinning at me, didn’t likey), and taking pictures slash walking around where Bridget Jones was shot.

Oh I forgot to say there was a massive box at Tate which is pitch black (well least the first time I did it) inside which was fun to walk in. I enjoyed the whole grabbing on to people and nearly smacking into a wall. The walls where all soft and nice to stroke.  I wouldn’t say it was a fantastic day out as I would be fibbing but I also would be fibbing if I said I didn’t like it.

The three mile walk was the thing I most enjoyed. I didn’t know how many different parts of London I haven’t been to before. These parts wasn’t as crowded and had a beatify to it. So glad I decided to wear my Nike trainers instead of my Croc sneakers as my foot would of cained.  I just didn’t drink enough so once I finished it I had to rush off to the nearest place to buy one.

This post isn’t really what I wanted it to be. Its all messed up and doesn’t contain everything I wanted to say as I’m rushing it. Once I have caught up with college work you should expect to see this rewritten and the photos I took. I can’t post them unedited.

The first day trip was on Tuesday and was spent at Milford on sea and Mudeford . Wasn’t looking forward to it as I felt a bit old to spend days out with parents but I was wrong. It turned out okay as I had food outside a cafe with a beautiful sea view and that special refreshing air you get at beaches. The tide was in the whole time I was there so I didn’t bother going on the rocky beach. Only issue I had was my dad being a pain and wasn’t making any effort to include himself or even stay awake in the car. Him snoring in the car really pissed me and my mom. Plus on the way there his directions was wrong. My mom was driving the right way and he told her to go towards Southport or something. I had fun directing back on route. Not. Thank god for Google maps.

On Wednesday and Thursday was spent up with my sister that lives in a village near Derby. I am still amazed how massive the Westfield centre is. For those who don’t know what one of them is, its a shopping centre on a seriously large scale. You wouldn’t believe how spacious it  really is till you looked at it yourself. I had a evening getting a few things there which included Croc trainers (which are really light and easy to clean) and a new jacket. I shouldn’t forget I now have a bath bomb from Lush to use. It smells nice.. I am saving it for a moment when I’m feeling in the dumps.

I had my dinner at Pizza express which I loved. I had dough balls which I been dreaming of eating since my last visit and shock horror, a pizza. They like glass bottles for drinks such as Coke which is nice to pour in the glass but it is a shame they don’t have taps as it be great if they offered bottomless refills. I get so thirsty when I’m waiting for my food there.

I spent the night sleeping on the sofa bed. I had a good sleep on it actually and used this amazing cushion that turns into a duvet. I love the Swedish people at Ikea, they come up with some good ideas sometimes. It kept me at a good temperature over the night  and the zip was at a location that didn’t contact bother you whilst sleeping. The only problem I had was the gerbils eating their cage overnight causing a annoying sound. I said shut up to them and liked how they was frozen still for enough moments for me to nod off.

I have college tomorrow which I actually don’t mind. I am putting my fingers crossed that the new timetable will be more to my liking. One can only hope however. I guessing he will just do different lessons in the same slots as before which will be dull. Anyway least I will have a hour gyming things up. I better sort my bag out now for everything. Toodles.

Firstly my mother kidney disease has reached the point where she needs to have dialysis and therefore everything all unsettling. I am being forced to tidy up piles of mess in the house that is difficult to clear up which needs to be done apparently before this team that will check the house that its okay for the machine and is clean enough. That is causing me extra stress and the honest truth is I hardly got a spare time as it is. I’m feeling really bad that I can’t just magically sort it out . I need the support of my dad but he isn’t giving me it. I need to do it by next Saturday and I can’t see it happening which is seriously bad.

Her reaching that point have meant that the support that I used to get from her, she no longer have to energy she to give as she wakes up for work, work, and sleep really. This causes a problem for me as I used to solve my issues out by having some of her input but now I am forced to be more independent than I like to be.

Then there is college being a issue again. I am still seriously not finding the lessons / assignments enjoyable. I feel depressed once I finished the day sometimes and its not good. The problem I have that this is the only college that I feel in my area that got a high standard which does that course and I do love the college.  Just not the course. And I heard recently that my previous radio teacher won’t be teaching me this year. It was one of the only things keeping me going. And instead radio will be taught by the tutor that teaches nearly every lesson I have. He doesn’t have any experience with  radio and he just be reading it all from book really. What is the point with that?

My day was really shite as well today. I woke up the time that the first lesson started and had to rush to college after managing to get a lift from my dad who had to take time off his work. Then when I arrived the presentations finished which I needed to do myself and didn’t get told by the tutor whats happening now with that. Then they had a screening of music videos. They promised me on the meeting I had with them that they wouldn’t show my work unless I asked them to. So that promise was broken and I was really angry when I left that I had to have a long walk to calm down. Felt like leaving the course then. Then it turned out that I didn’t need to attend after all as the lesson I was supposed to be doing editing, was just a catch up session. So I walked home after that, not archiving anything by rushing to the college and feeling annoyed and pissed off. It was raining heavily aswell which didn’t improve my mood.

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At some point recently in one of the mornings when it was raining, I got informed by one of the cleaners (that works in the block my lessons are at, which I seem to know well from attending college for a year) that I can use the showers if I wanted to. I’m not sure if I have the courage to use showers which are that public. Firstly I would get paranoid that somebody steals my bag or something whilst using one, then I’m thinking how I have no pride in showing my body to anyone, then I thought that it would be embarrassing if the cleaner walks in whilst I was using it. I knew that their was showers there but I didn’t think I was allowed to use them and thought it was only for the sports folks to use as the sports hall is located near to them.

On Tuesday, I was really relaxed and chilled out for a change. I attended the first bit of my first lesson but the rest of that lesson I hanged outside with some of the other peeps in media on the grass nearby to a shop and in the town centre. It was admittedly the first time I been to town during a break time. I felt like picking the litter up that the people in the group was dropping but didn’t want to be seen as dork so I just had to be disappointed silently. But apart from that it was first time I been calm around with them certain folks. The only thing that annoyed me that they nearly made me late for the next lesson which I wouldn’t of been amused about if I was. I like having a good reputation with the tutors as it means I can get more help and trust from them.

Over the past few nights I been chatting with a guy called Mac. I hope he doesn’t mind me including his name, but its not like I’m saying anything bad. I’m amazed how much we can talk with each other till its the next day and agree with things. He has made my evening less boring and he good to talk things with. So if he does read this, I would to say thank you for listening and responding to me.

This afternoon I went to the gym for the first time in ages. And it was kick in the arse for me to go as firstly it was a important because I had gym review appointment (which means they check how I’m doing and change my routine) and because I managed to miss or not been able to make the past appointments I made. So I put the effort to go in and even packed some suitable clothing in my bag on my way out to college. Anyway, he asks what I think of the current routine and I say that I’ve got bored of doing the exercise bike to which he asks, what do you want to do instead as you need to do 10 minutes of cardio? So I had visions of using the trendmill.

So I said I liked to do some running and we walked to the trendmill I’m so keen of using. I have used one before but not in a proper running mode way. So he tells me how to set it up, but it gets to the point when he dials in the effort mode. It out of 10. He presses 6. So I was thinking to myself after pressing the quick start when I was ready, this isn’t as hard as it looks as it wasn’t that fast. But as I was doing a program, the machine bleeped and suddenly going faster and faster. I managed to do the whole program but there was times I thought my feet wouldn’t keep up with it.

I went on to do my normal routine, but the weights got increased up on various things which is a good thing as it means I’m getting stronger. My leg strength has improved the most but I’m not surprised walking on a daily basic. I got to last part of my routine which normally is a plank. But I never been able to do them how you supposed to do it. So I’m now doing crunches which will hopefully means my stomach will be looking fine by the time I go on the Disneyland trip again.

It have come to me that people reply with the phase, ‘I was only joking’. Well  if you was only joking how come I wasn’t even smiling at that comment then. I might be taking things too seriously but I do think people say stuff to find that the other person gets offended. then instead of saying sorry or just shutting up, they think by saying their was joking will magically make the person okay with it.

Least college is more okay these days than the past couple of weeks. I can’t wait to my current subjects over with and hopefully get some subjects I prefer next term. Admittedly, research which I do lothe is one of the most important lessons of media as it likely it will be the first job I will go in to.

A positive though is that I am no longer panicking about assignments and just staying calm about it as it doesn’t benefit me much to panic and just makes me feel unwell.

In sad news, I think two further people will be quitting my course by the end of term. One of them sat on top of a moving car whilst the other person filmed it which meant the video production tutor wasn’t that pleased or amused when he watched the footage himself. One of  them was already in trouble and got banned from the green room for leaving it in a mess so they must feel screwed now.

Anyway sorry for being brief, promise things will be less boring soon as it get into November.

I had a McDonalds half an hour before the time I agreed to meet up and as time edged on, I got more nervous and shaky as I was dreading that I would feel really dissatisfied what they will have to say to me and I have to give up something I have a real passion for and the only thing I have a passion in.

I’m not going to go in to details about what got mentioned or what they said as its too personal for me. However I will say that I made a agreement with them and I feel abit happier right now. It isn’t I agree to do for them but promises from them. If they don’t meet these promises then I’m off is the reality of the situation. But it gives me three weeks of reflection and thoughts about the future of my life.

I wasn’t very amused by the fact a couple of days ago when I posting on to facebook what my thoughts of the course were that I already had somebody begging me not to quit. They then went on to show that they don’t understand the situation by saying I only wanting to quit because of my best mate quitting. I don’t share a certain aspect of my life to anybody. Only my family understand most of it. Even my close mate which did quit doesn’t know most of it.

I find it hard to see when I am depressed as it not just being low all the time or being happy. It perks and drops all the time randomly.

The break was another case of socialising with people you hardly know the names of and bumping into various people you didn’t want to which I knew from school. Amazed that people took noticed of me for a change and instead of blanking me out.

I returned back with the group and a lesson was happening in the media computer room which we was in so we unsuccessfully searched for spare computers elsewhere in the college. By the library in a meeting room, they had a free condom drop in thing going on. So we went in for the heck of it. Turned out to be a good time. They had beer goggles which everyone had fun walking into things and had the joy to watch somebody in the group putting a condom on. lol

Afterwards I had a laugh with some media folk in the other media group on my course. One of them who I knew from school but don’t mind shown me a video of his crazy mate putting his ballsack on a hot motorbike excuse pipe. That cheered me up seeing how stupid some people are. I was then asked to appear in a music video which I do some stupid dancing. The guy who it was for got banned for leaving the room in a mess, I felt bad not reminding him about the tables.

The key skills (a lesson which the government forces on college students) was sending random photos crap to each other. I could bet money that least a few of them will have computer access revoked from them soon as they sent stuff edging on pornographic content. I need to make sure I deleted them all when I get back on Monday cause any the photos to pop up when a tutor is behind me.

This evening I was depressed again but found the courage to some of it to my mother. This resulted in her arranging a meeting for tomorrow. I am already nervous about this as if they don’t courage me about things I will be forced to quit. You can push yourself though something which makes you more sad by the day.

A newer version of the one I use

I’ve started getting assignments now. I don’t know why however I am struggling to do them. I did know at the back of my head that this course would be harder than the last one but I didn’t see me getting so upset and stressed over the first couple of assignments. I managed to do parts of one of them now. Its just hard. Doesn’t add much encouragement when everybody starts getting unwell and yourself start feeling ill. However I am unsure if they are ill or taking time out of lessons to battle the assignments.

I don’t like having Fridays off. It makes the weekend feel like a week in itself. And in the week I get this trail of thought that I manage to clean the house, or that all the assignments will be out of the way, or I find the cure to cancer or something, but it doesn’t work will this. I shouldn’t expect this to happen at all as I keep getting sad when it doesn’t happen.

I am so happy that I have a mate to text to all the time as he made this weekend more bearable already I idol him so much. He is supportive of me weather I am at college or by mobile phone. Though I wished I could be more than mates, I know I should be grateful that he is there for me as a close best mate.

The other day at the gym I got checked out by a guy. I was rowing at the time while he scroll past me, to get a dumbbell to put on Bicep + Tricep Curl machine. I never seen somebody do that before so I watched him whilst I carried on rowing. And he kept looking over his shoulder to me. Though thinking now I don’t know if because he was checking me out or because I was staring in amazement to him like a dork. Oh well. Once my time ran out that I set, I just rushed out. I didn’t feel comfortable to chat to him.

When I heard my mom wanted to put nets in to my window, I thought of the nets you see when you visit your outdated grannies house. Along with the china and a collection of boring stones and rocks that she is eager to describe the story of. But forgetting where she started so therefore starting again. Anyway enough of my gran. But I was thankful that nets look so much modern these days.So one of the things I got today was nets.

In the same shop I brought some curtains for my room. But you would think that buying curtains would be simple. You would be wrong. You have to measure all kinds of things, double that, divide this. So I did the measurements and got my sister to work out what size curtain I needed. Also I had to buy a curtain rail as when I was younger, ripped the curtain rail off. Anyway have a look below at how my room looks now. The last thing I need to do is to replace the floor with carpet tiles.

Last thing I am going to mention is a moan. There was a person in my old group that was slightly mad. The one which started up a hate campaign that smelt of epic fail due to the video getting pulled down within hours of uploading. It seems that he hates me obversely. I just feel he is so immature posting childish replies to most things I commented on facebook. I did unblock him as I blocked him in hope that he would chill but I had to block him again. Oh well. I don’t hate him myself,  if he feels good hating me and doesn’t harm me in the process. Good for him.

BSM, no longer part of RAC

In today lesson I learnt how to reverse park into slots. Even though my first few admits were wonky, they wasn’t terrible. I was meant to see the lines in the mirror so therefore I think my mirrors wasn’t set up correctly for parking. The hotspot for learning to park is the carpark at Homebase which is near to where Fox FM once was.I found it amusing seeing others doing it so badly. It would of been disrespectful if shown that so I was like so what else are we doing? Roundabouts and more duel carriageways. I like both.

When I finished my driving lesson, it wasn’t long till my mother arrived back from work feeling excused. I don’t know how she manages to do work these days. Especially on Fridays where the NHS compress a full day in the hours of a half day. Anyway, she invited me to go with her to Didcot to pick up dry cleaning. I always get people shouting my name in Didcot but thankfully it didn’t happen this trip.It not like I don’t enjoy iy, it just means I have to chat with people I don’t care much about.

I had a good wonder around the city looking at all the stores that hadn’t yet opened. I brought a hot chocolate from Coffee Republic forgetting that they don’t put plastic lids on their cups. So I looked like a dork with a shaking hand with hot beverage spilling over my arms, tee and jeans. I even had one passer-by giving me the sympathy look.

I received a text from a mate called Sam asking where I was so I looked for him at the meeting point. Once a mate of his soon arrived after I did we did the same wonder that I just did as it was still before the meeting time. During this wonder with them, I nearly smashed into a pole. It scared the lights out of me I tell you.HMV had Beatles day, we went into there. Wasn’t as impressive as thought it would be but I liked that they tried.

Soon the time everybody was to meet up arrived. It was then I noticed that the other groups that were involved in different courses in media was going to act like twats today. One of the tutors joked on how they might of been a mix up on the film that we are watching today and that if it was this independent French film by the same name, he wouldn’t be amused. I felt so much grown up that I reached the stage that I am able to maintain a conversation with the tutors.

I was glad that I didn’t wear a coat when we got in to the cinema as it was really warm like it was the last trip to that very cinema last year. Some of the tutors wanted to speak before they played the film but the other groups was indeed acting like twats as I expected by not shutting their gobs. This was the same case during parts of the movie and they got owned by one of the tutors towards the end when she got proper pissed like I was getting.

The movie ended and I was pretty glad that it did, I had to wait for my timetable then I shot out with my best mate. I think that the heat gets to you in that place, it makes watching any film there quite uncomfortable but I think the fact once you seen one bank raided, you pretty much seen them all. I was getting bored and sick by it. I was cheerful when the lead character played by Johnny Depp was shot in the head as it meant I could go. It supposed to be a upsetting scene I think. Well I had a sigh of relief.

My best mate and his tag along found their bus stop and I said my goodbyes leaving them there as I didn’t fancy waiting for a bus I wasn’t catching. I found a Burger King and ate it on the way to my bus stop. Burning my hands in the process did I mention? I wouldn’t do that again. So that was my day.

I took photos for the blog which is something I forgot to do in recent times.

It’s the third day of the course now. The week pretty much over apart from tomorrow cinema trip (which will be much like last years) ,  I’m eager for the lessons to start. They have ran out of first week things to do now after screening all the different teams filming from yesterday so it was a empty day.

The screening was a good laugh. It have shown that this year group has more sense of humour than the group I was in last year. And quality of it was very like the quality of my old group towards the end of the course. I don’t know if I’m being too harsh there but it seems like that to me.

I am rather sad that the group had to get spilt up as it was too massive for media. The reason mainly is because they won’t be enough edit suites around if everybody in the group was on the same timetable. I did hope when I heard the news that the mixture of the new groups would of been couple of people from old group and newbies, but it turned out that group A has newbies and group B consists of old group and a few newbies chucked in. By old group I mean the few leftover people from the old group.

So that was disappointing, but then there is more. They gave my group the new tutor which means I will have a repeat of last year of hardly being told anything we meant to know. Like my new computer network details that I supposed to get by now. Eugh. Oh well, everything else is good and positive which is the main thing.

I nearly left out something which would of made my post title more confusing than it normally is. My day was much more shorter than everyone else as I only need to do English in February due to how fantastic my coursework was so therefore didn’t need to attend any GCSE meetings. And some of the old group people was in the situation. And therefore invited me to Subway. However they had to walk to a mate house so dropped my invite. That was another thrilling thing in my life.

Now I getting into bed, finding I can’t get to sleep and waking up slightly late. I hope thats not the case. I need to be on time for the bus. Eugh. For everyone information my current alarm clock music is MGMT – Time to Pretend. i see how long it takes for me to get really sick of it. The concept is I get out of bed to turn it off and in the process get out of bed. We see how that goes..

Car Park which I shot a film in the next day.

After taking a break from everything the past couple of weeks I decided to post something on here. Since I last posted a few things have happened, my sister got married and I got enrolled on to my course. Well today is my first day back to college.

God that was boring today. The people in the new group seem nice, a mixture of couple of people in the old group I had plus loads of newbies. The group is so massive I haven’t yet got the chance to know everyone. So big that they will spilt people up into two groups by the end of the week. Anyway, back to why it was boring. Maybe because it everything I did the first week of my last course. Sigh. Oh well..

I am so less gutted about not achieving the mark I wanted in English. Turns I was 15 marks down from the mark I wanted and was because of just one paper I messed up on. Talking to my teacher has removed the worry and stress I had about it. Turns out my coursework grades was one of the highest apparently and that all I need to do is revision for the exams in Feb and then turn up again for the exams. Trust me, I will be revising so much in exam techniques so much over this year.

I haven’t got that much to say so I will just post this. Hopefully with be on a roll of posting this week. Not going to look at my stats as they will be dreadful right now.

I had to wait in all day for my replacement phone. I managed to stuff the buttons on my old phone with sand which meant texting was a pain as you had to push the buttons in more than usual. Also it just was acting up. So when I wanted to enjoy the sun, I had to stay inside. Gutted that I didn’t have time for the gym. I was looking at the time and thinking hope they hurry up when it arrived. I am so happy I got another phone box with all the contents again. I somehow managed to loose most of that stuff for last time.

In the afternoon I had the dentist. I don’t really like the chairs in the waiting room at the one I go to. They were like plastic bucket chairs. They wasn’t as comfortable as bucket chairs normally are though, it compared to the chairs you get in school comfortability wise. At then when its my turn after the usual delay I learn to expect now, it turns out that I missed a appointment to get a filling done. However he managed to do it in the time I had. I hate having a numb month but rather not have a painful mouth though..

Plenty of these was drunk

I just got back from a weekend trip to Wales which was very relaxing and was the only proper break I had with the two months I got off from college.

My trip started off at six on a Friday when I dashed to pack my new DG back pack which I brought for college. Surprised how much stuff I managed to cramp in it.  At lunchtime I took a bus to my local train station to catch a train to Bristol which was thankfully direct. I met some of my mates that have a car there which brought me to Wales. Nobody knew what camp-site we where going to so it was totally random.

Once one of the other updated us what campsite we are at, it was a case of tapping the postcode in the gps. It took afew hours to arrive there though and arrived early evening.

Two BBQs a go!

Over the weekend it consisted of eating BBQ’s, drinking beers / ciders, chatting about things, playing cricket, and walking to the beach. It was one of the most chilled out breaks I done. In the evening the group let me get and keep the fire burning in this bbq bucket thing.

The last night consisted of warming marshmallows over the bucket thing. It turns out that I suck at doing that as I burnt one of them and one of them completely melted off the metal stick thingy!

Now going back to local life, I received the nearly all certificates recently and I got the grades to continue college which is means I enjoy the few days left of my break fully. I am planning to go to my gym alot and get my fitness back for when I got to do a 40 min daily walk again.

A dog that was outside my college

I am finding it really hard to post anything right now. Where should I start really.. Well I got my enrolment pack for a another year at college which has made me feel nervous again. I am still waiting for my letter of confirmation that I got a place on the course. Everybody I been talking to says I should get one but I’m not sure. I will really have to call somebody at college if I haven’t received  anything by the end of the week. I will be a proper wreck if I don’t get in to the course.

My parents have decided to change their bedroom and I was helping out clear out the old wardrobes. I was sad that I wasn’t allowed to use the metal hammer that smashed the chairs and a office corner with. The wood was seriously heavy and they wasn’t pleased when I dropped some it down the stairs and ripped the hallway carpet. Oh well.I nearly crapped myself as I thought I was about to be in A&E as I had to dive out of the way.

Carper Right has this amazing strong person which can lift 50 carpet tiles in one go and bring them to the boot of the car from the store. I’m almost certain that if health & safety saw this man doing it, they would of had a heart attack on the spot. It was nifty though and I feel less of a man because of it. lol

I been invited to camping in Wales but  I’m not keen of either. Camping isn’t comfortable in the slightest and you don’t even have a shower I don’t think. I likes showers. And Wales is known not to have the greatest weather. But as my life is rather boring right now I decided to give it a go. As Dr Pepper says ‘Whats the worst that could happen?’

But I wasn’t too keen spending a day with him. I regret thinking that now as I ended up doing fine with him. Well after I said I couldn’t talk much due to my throat which was partly true. Me and dad have good moments with each other sometimes but he a complete dick sometimes. By that I mean that he overreacts and argues with me when he is pissed off with something unrelated.  I can’t complain though, we all are sometimes I guess. But going back on the subject, I didn’t want to talk much with him as it normally end up being annoying. I feel bad feeling like that though as least he is trying.

The day worked out like this. I got up more early than I needed to (not on purpose I must say, illness) and spent loads of time catching up with various blogs. I do admit some of these blogs I wouldn’t want anyone walking into the room when I’m on them. But I’m a teenager, what do you expect. Anyway, I wasn’t able to read them the past couple of days as I didn’t feel like reading much and was being sick way too often. When I noticed my dad was ready to do the task, I was quick to start it or it wouldn’t of happened.

I totally had fun murdering these chairs to little pieces. I wasn’t doing this just for the fun of it though, they wouldn’t fitted in the car unless I smashed them to bits. One word of advice though. Watch out for bits of flying wood. My arms has got all these cuts on it now. Oh well.. it was totality worth it.The other thing that was verging on the unsafe side is that I was trusted with a circular saw to make scrap wood that was oversized to fit the car. There was some dodgy moments when I thought something bad was about to happen. I had dust in my eyes aswell.

Oh yeah, so we managed to get all that junk to the skip in five car journeys. I shouldn’t call it the skip as its the recycling centre.  You can tell that by the fifth visit to the ’skip’ that I recognised the guys working there and they recognised me and my dad. I started to have a crush on one of them by the end of the day I had to admit. It was raining and whilst in a rush to throw the junk, I got detracted looking at him and walked past the pile I needed to put it on and put it on the wrong heap. I said sorry to the guy and he smiled. That was strange..

Mmmm fishy goodness

For the past couple of days I wasn’t that well. It was very painful to shallow so eating foods was a harsh time and my throat was killing me with the pain meaning I has sleepless nights because of it. I also was sick on one of the nights so yeah. Glad that I am starting to feel better today. However I am gutted that I cancelled my driving lesson I would of had today, I would of been okay after all.

I didn’t end up going to that networking gaming event after all which sucked. I couldn’t get a lift to where it was hosted, my sister was coming down for dinner, and I started to feel unwell then so it was all against me.

I was starting to panic that my final grade for this year in media wasn’t good enough to get in for next year. My friends and family have assured me that I will though. I think all this time off is slowly turning me mad. I have dreams of being in college now. That how much I am in love with it.

I been listening to loads of music for ideas for music videos as that going to be one of my assignments when I get back. I been avoiding  watching the music videos for the songs as I would be too tempted to steal their idea. I am stuck on what song to pick and what would happen in the video. Guess I been thinking too much about it.

My favourite lunchtime snack at the moment is fish finger sandwiches. Mainly because it such a simple thing to cook and am feeling rather lazy to do anything that involves lots of timing. So yeah, fish fingers and some fresh loaf of bread is the way forward for me at lunchtimes.

As you can see in the photo, I gathered all things I collected which has memories for me and stuck it on the wall just above my desk.

Ever since being off college I have meant to done so many things but failed to do so so far. My motivation nose dived pretty much after the first week having such freedom from college. I haven’t been feeling that well either which haven’t helped matters at all. I been coughing for the past few months in fact. I want to get a gp appointment but its finding a time that suits one of parents to get me there.

I did try keeping in touch with my bestest best friend Sam over the break but I think the fact of the amount of texts I sent to him have sort out of put him off replying to me anymore which is kinda sad. I have however been invited to a LAN (network games) party from a friend I knew from school which is exciting but I don’t want commit to that if I find out to have something that I could pass on to others.

I need to stop splashing out all my money once I get it. This month I have ordered two tees from different American websites. One of them arrived today and I’m looking forward wearing it tomorrow. I don’t know that is sad. I love unwrapping packages though. And the smell of new clothing. They should bottle that smell up for me.

I’m so tempted painting my ceiling white. It been blue for years and I think it makes my small room feel even more smaller. I shouldn’t moan about the size of my room though. I have been offered the room which was my sisters but I personally like being in the room next to the bathroom even if I have to listen to some unpleasant sounds. lol

I have to admit that this blog is not the most important thing to me anymore. I used to batter a eyelid if it wasn’t updated for awhile. But these days, dare I say I have more important things to do. But I promise that this blog will get more regular with post again.

I am looking forward to starting college again in September as I’m finding the break a real drag to get though. However I have got things planned now that I can do.

Various uni prospectus from Derby Uni.. contains Stoke-on-trent lolly!

Its my second day in Derby and I have to say that things have been rather random. Yesterday I travelled up in the afternoon in my sister car and she packed her car full with different items for the house that she moving into with her partner. I was crammed in myself but the journey wasn’t that bad even though I had a hamster in a cadge on my lappy.

I went to sleep on this camp bed that already has some lovely holes in it. I woke up at 4am because my weight has just tore the whole thing apart. I was so glad they were planning to get rid of it anyway because I have had rendered it useless now. It’s a shame cause it was better than directly sleeping on the floor.

Anyway, moving on to today. I’d got up at 8am to have a refreshing shower and cornflakes whilst seeing disasters that the emergency services have to deal with on telly. Not exactly something I wanted to watch really but the cable video-on-demand didn’t work at the time.

At lunchtime, I decided to help out by mowing the lawn. I stupidly thought that such a task would be simple to archive and that I would be munching on another snack within moments. I was so wrong by thinking this. I had to put this pesky mower together and then I found that every five seconds I had to clear the base of it or it wouldn’t function. Ah well.. least it did the job.

Much later on in the afternoon at around 3pm, I arrived in Stoke where I unplanned went out with some people I knew from the place to the park as they were looking after the neighbour kids for some reason. I discovered that I would fail so badly if I ever wanted children.

I went to the house earlier than the people at the park and went out with my sister in the car. When we returned, we discovered the locked them out. During the time they were waiting, they deweeded the front garden which I was amazed by as the two years I visited the place, not once they took much care for it.
So we went out to the garden centre, for them to spend around fifty quid on plants. Not like you can get much for that price these days.

So that was my rather random day. Sorry if I rambled too much. :/

I had to wake up so early at around 5:30am to be able to get up and travel to the meeting point where the mini bus will arrive to pick everybody up. The people I was travelling with mainly was from a baptist youth group thingy and therefore didn’t know many of them. It was okay though as everybody got on.

We managed to arrive at Alton Towers at a better time than last year due to setting off earlier. The rides that I managed to get on was Air, Nemesis, Congo River Rapids, and the boat River Bank Eye Spy ride which was strangely enjoyable but mainly cause we nearly tipped the boat over with some good farm noises. This was good that I managed this many as normally UE means that the queues are wild. I prefer the new skyride as it been replaced with new carriages.

The live music in the evening was fantastic with the highlights for me being YFriday and certainly Kutless. I liked some of Superchick set but I felt like it was cheesy at times. I did feel bad for them when there was somebody behind me yelling to them to get off. I didn’t go the gym this week but the amount I jumping and hand waving must of made up for this.

So yeah.. good times! Cheers everybody again for making the day so fabulous for me and extra thanks for the people running this trip, dropping me off going out of their way. (Y)

Once we arrived to the South Bank, we had a hour to spare which mainly was spent taking photos and drinking soft drinks at the bar. It was the first place I found which serves eggy bread. I was so tempted to order it but I didn’t have anytime to spare. I love to have a life style that involved going out to these places regularly.

When we arrived at the studios, there was guys with headphones with a mic. I had laugh with them when a posh sliver car nearly ran me over. Once we checked in, it was a case on waiting outside in a line right against the studio building. After half an hour outside, we got in. I didn’t think that we would walk though different sets but we did where one of them had the car from ‘Back from the Future’.

Behind the Loose Women set had loads of duck tape to repair it as got wore out after the much usage it gets. I didn’t know how much lights that are involved for shows. It makes the set looks really different without the lights on. It was really good show and I really enjoyed doing the clapping etc. During one of the breaks when they do Q&As, somebody wanted to steal a mug. So when the show finished, a runner quickly carried the mugs away in a basket. BTW, they don’t drink tea or coffee, they drink bottle water.

The rest of the day was good aswell. Walked right next to the London Eye to get a McDonalds. The express line was really fast aswell. I was surprised how far down you have to walk to get to the toilets though. The rest of the day was mainly buying fast food. lol

Anyway, I need to do gym.

One problem I had today is that person I was going to interview this evening has been hospitalised. I hope she gets well and still wants to do the interview or I will be stressed out again as I will have to find another subject to do. It means also that I wasted my efforts this lunchtime walking to the college to pick up the recorder. However I’m not annoyed as I wouldn’t want to be in the situation having to have a bowel transplant.

I’m looking forward to Ultimate Events which is happening in May. For people who don’t know what Ultimate Events is, its a day out at Alton Towers (a theme park) and then a music festival in a large carpark. The thing I love is that even if you don’t listen to Christian music you can still enjoy the whole event. Another thing I like is that I haven’t got a clue who I’m going with apart from David and I think whats his name. Its bad when you forget a name of a person you know of for years.

Tuesday will be something new, going to London with my media folks and being in the audience of Loose Women. Not like you know I’m on it as you never see the audience. You might hear us. Thats one thing I’m on edge about. I wouldn’t put it past some of the people I’m going with to shout something rude out and getting the group kicked out. I’m not that sure if we be let in anyways.

The timetable has now collapsed apparently for lessons however it doesn’t feel like it. You still have to attend the lessons as timetabled but the only thing different is that the only thing you supposed to be focused on is the Final Media Project. However that is not the case as I have English, Animation, and Meg’s terrible lesson to also focus on.

I didn’t get anything done today though which pisses me off now but for some reason I wasn’t engaged to the work at all. I really should of pushed myself to do something but I just blanked. I saw everyone else typing and I was there just staring at the screen like a plonker wasting the limited time I have left. I have to do a folder worth of paperwork and I only done a page so far.

English was the most dreadful lesson of the day as its in the room I really don’t like and you feel every second that have gone past. It’s a real drag to get to the end of the lesson. I wouldn’t be doing the lesson if Sam stopped doing it. He the only reason why I’m doing it as if I left, he have nobody in the lesson he knows which would suck for him.

I hope tomorrow is much more better than today was.

My final major project idea has already changed. I was going to do a radio doc on Creative Commons music but now I hope to one on bowel transplants and to interview the second person in Oxfordshire to have a bowel transplant. Exciting stuff..

Note to self, take photos. I promise that I get in the habbit again soonish. I will have London photos which will be exciting towards the end of the month. I already got plenty of things planned this year which will mean this blog will get busy soon.

My dad brought me a Sub today from Subway of course. I had the Sub of the day which was the Meatballs with melted cheese. I have to say that was the nicest sub that I have had in awhile though I never had one which has dripped. Once I finished the sub I discovered that there was cheese all over my jeans! It was a pain to clear with the one tissue left in the store. Oh well. Good times.

Recently on Facebook a mate of Adam posted a picture of him nearly choking on three drumsticks so I said that if he manages to put 10 drumsticks in his mouth at once that I pay a fiver relying on the fact that he couldnt manage three. Well he fringing manages it so I’m a fiver down. I post a picture of it later on once I done some photoshopping bluring action.

Something I found funny today (and probably only I will find funny) was that recently my mom brought this tennis ball picker uper and flinger toy for the dog. Well I had a go with it today on the side of the house and I somehow flung the ball so far that I couldn’t see it fly off or anywhere including the neighbours garden. So imaged the ball dropping from the sky on a nearby path on top of a old granny. I’m so mean sometimes and I swear it was more funny than I tell.

I’m currently limping with my injuried foot as instead of hitting the ball playing a game with again the dog, I instead hit the cement floor at a really fast speed. It really hurt at the time but thankfully I didnt smnap my foot nail like I thought at the time.

When I arrived to my only lesson at college, my tutor told me I had a exam in a moment which totally shocked and confused me as I wasn’t informed of any exam that was before June. So I went down to check what was happening to be told that I didn’t have one. When I did go upstairs they were sure I had one as it was on their list. After meeting Kev again he went to my tutor to correct her. How unprofessional that was.

The lesson was a drag as I didn’t have much to do. I was bored stiff throughout the lesson but was entertained by helping people out with Photoshop as I understood it enough to.  As soon it was finished, I shot out of the room and dashed to the town centre.

From there I went to my gym after eating a iced bun to boost my energy levels. Felt strange changing at the gym into different clothing as I’m paranoid of the older people as I’m really young compared to everyone else. I couldn’t find my file as I wasn’t there for weeks and it turned out it got put into naughty pile.  I hate how they got a clipart of the devil on the label of the naughty pile.

I feel worn out now though.

It something I came across with when I went to school and some of the people in my college group. I mean, get a grip with yourselves. Just because you are getting good grades doesn’t mean you shouldn’t be nice to the people that ain’t performing aswell.

It something I have to admit of doing when I started the course with a guy that I knew from my school which got more worse special needs than me. But I saw what a nob I was to be like that and I stopped doing it. When I play table football with this guy, I am amazed how shocked the superiorcrowd get.

So yeah thats my rant on supieriority that was inspired by a blog post I just read.

I’m gutted that I didn’t really have a productive day. I didn’t do the gym like I wanted to all week. I used to go with my mom but she is rather ill. I’m so glad that she called up NHS direct and got some medicine. Hopefully she will get well. I think she might of given me a chest infection. I coughing loads and I ordered a Dominos and I didn’t want to eat much of it. Thats my breakfast sorted though.

I didn’t think that there was people scared of using social netowkring until recently. Well he doesn’t leave messages anywhere on the site and has to text me. I hardly get text messages so it is nice but it bugs me that he doesn’t get the full potienal of the websites. I think he just uses the site to stalk people and be nosiey really. Maybe I’m being too harsh there.

Well it’s late so I better get some sleep. Well after nipping down and getting some slices of pizza. And a drink.

Anyway. Lets talk about Friday. Well, I didn’t have a phone so therefore it ended up meaning that I didn’t have a alarm to wake me up resulting on me oversleeping and waking up 10 mins before the lesson.

Thankfully I kept hold of the postcard the media people gave me which had the tutor number and called her up. She told me that they were in a different room and when I reached the college, I stepped into that room but got a shock when I found it was grannies on computer. I tried explaining I got the wrong room and I was a student but they couldn’t work Word out. I quickly told them about it and dashed out wondering were the class was. I worked it out in the end and managed to caught up with the work.

In the afternoon, it was video production. Gah! I thought I would of loved this subject when I joined the course but the only thing I don’t mind about it is the editing which I still only know the basics of. In the subject, everybody group is making two adverts. Well the adverts I made suck. I mean, come on.. I’m mumbling in the adverts! Then to rub thing into the womb, Tiff and Key flipping join the group which I can’t argue about as Tiff is the girlfriend of the person I’m working with and they done crap all!

Towards the end of the day, they suggest leaving early and as we managed to get away with it last time. I just went along with it as I wasn’t really enjoying being there.

So yeah that was Friday.

Then a couple of days later I receive this email on how not many people done the assignment and how we are letting ourselves down. Well lets stop there for one moment.. If nearly nobody in the group have done it then maybe just possibly we are struggling and need a prep to encourage us to do it. A email that gives a impression that you are a bad person cause even though you spent all the free time you got and stressed to extremes but you didn’t manage to hand it in time. Well sorry.

Also another thing that pissed me off about my tutor is that after my mom managed to injure herself again, my mom contacted the Media department to inform them about it and one of the thing they done is contacted my tutor. My tutor hasn’t contacted me in college or called to check up on me.

I’m super upset about it all. There is too many up and downs going on for me at the moment and I’m never too sure how a day at college will end for me.

I was really pissed off by the end of today. Well firstly like I already said, I’m currently struggling to do any work which means I am slowly getting behind the coursework. I don’t know if it because I have extra pressure as they think that I am doing very well or something. I rather they would piss off and stop pointing out my grades to everyone. They making out I am more clever than I am.

Then the person I used to go out with in school and then was friends with untill recently at college have suddenly managed to get popular at college and have all these people at college to hang with and I am slowly becoming a loner. Each breaktime is currently painful for me as I don’t really have a proper friends at college. And a group I thought I was friends with just used me when they fell out with each other. I was in the middle of the war and then when they calmed down, blamed all their problems on me

So life pretty much sucks at the moment. Oh and I have a driving lession tomorrow which I am not in the mood to do but its too late to back out of it.

As part of one of the many hard thinking sessions I had whilst up in Stoke, I realise that there some things that I used to do no longer fit in with my new lifestyle I now seem to be changing to. My college grades are doing alright but I’m not putting as much effort as I could be putting into it. I realised now that the effort I’m putting in to writing blog posts could be better used with writing essays and the such.

The other thing which I thought about which scared me is that the information I’m handing out on this blog isn’t safe and also means that random people I don’t want anything to be involved with is reading about my life. That isn’t good.

Yet another point is that my mates read this blog which isn’t bad but it has gotten to the point that I can’t mention things as part of a conversation as they already read it on line. I don’t feel secure that people read my life as a book anymore and I want to close that open door.

I don’t know what this means for this blog then. I suppose what this means is that it won’t get regularly updated as it once did. This could also mean that the content may change to something different. I just think that when it gotten to the point where you are upset when you viewership for the day has dropped by one that it isn’t no longer a healthy activity to do.

This blog isn’t all negative though. I changed as a person reflecting on the past and being able to see what I did wrong. It improved my writing skills which has helped with college. If the 2006 posts wasn’t deleted, you would see a very noticeable difference. It has also meant that i was able to tell people things I would of never had the guts to say in real life.

This isn’t the end of the blog. It just the end of what the current content is. I haven’t got the time or effort to be active blogger or webmaster anymore. It doesn’t appeal to me now. I loved blogging and to a point i still do but I don’t love what the current effects of the blog is.

I supposed to be doing some college work whilst I’m up here but I keep getting distracted by fun things that I can do more easily up here like go shopping or badly doing radio shows. I will live to regret it though when i comes Saturday when I be panicking and rushing work.

The internet in this house is dodgy to say the least, well the wifi is. I went into the control panel but the crappy BT Home Hub is way too simple even in the Advance so I couldn’t do what I wanted to do. Oh well.

I’m writing this blog post on a Mac which is a first. I never been on a modern mac till now and its strange whilst exciting. I’m slowly figuring things out on it and I can see why people are Mac fan boys now. The word press control panel mixes well with the whole Mac look..

I tried to go swimming today however the both times I tired (first alone and second with housemates), they weren’t open. This council sucks at somethings, I slowly love Vale when I’m over here.

I did another gym induction over here so when I visit Stoke I can do gym. Its a good logistic isn’t it. I joined the Keele gym and I’m not use to space as the Abingdon gym uses the most out of the small space it has. This Keele gym also have more modern models of the the equipment. Only fault I have with it is that they lost my form this morning however they let me go in and they found it by the end of the session. Its all good.

Anyway I better get off this Mac before I get addicted to it. I just want to stroke it and admire it.

Took near the Abby

I don’t like valentines mainly for two reasons. One reason is that I am single and its always been that way for me though I suppose I’m in the early stages with the whole relationships thing. It rubs in your face that you won’t be kissing anybody tonight. The second I just think it a fake day made up as a excuse to go out and I don’t see why you need one. You can have a romantic time at any time of the year and I don’t see why you should be forced into it by the shops on a certain day. But I suppose I’m not that positive because I don’t have a reason myself to be about it.

I went to see Keane last night at The O2 which is in London for the international readers out there. They were fantastic and I had a really enjoyable night out with my family all together for a change. We was intending on getting there by train however we wasn’t sure when the last train was, so we took the Oxford Expresss which a coach that took us to Victoria station. From there we caught various Tube trains to get arrive there. The rest of time there we be posted in a separate post sometime later on when i’m more awake.

This week I will be over at Stoke-on-Trent from tomorrow evening which will be a mini holiday for me. I will be on the student radio, eating out, and doing all kinds of exciting stuff whilst I’m up there. I am taking my laptop with me however the wifi in the house I’m staying at is quite dodgy.

Anyway I need to get my sleep as tomorrow a long long day.

Shot of a signpost in Abingdon town centre.

The photo is one I took when I was doing angles and viewpoints as part of my photography lessons. I finally managed to email some of the photos I took to post here when I’m lacking a photo. You guys love my photos it seems.

After having to get other people to put them in for me, I finally managed to put contact lenses in myself. Not panicking is one skill you have to learn to do, just stay calm and allow enough time to fail afew times. The first one I managed to put in my left one had to be took out as I got it too mucky. The right one is always a struggle but I managed it for once. I’m alright about my contact lenses check up appointment now.

Today was good fun. I went to the bus stop waiting for ages for the 35a and it reminded me of how many hours I must of waited for this bus when I went to school. I was about to call my Dad for a lift into Didcot but as I was going down my contact list, the bus arrived. As I got into Didcot, I noticed how much more windy it was and had a look in Next hoping to see one of my sister mates working in there. It seemed not.

After feeling awkward coming out of Next, I went in the direction of the cinema but ended up looking around Broadstreet which is a street mainly fulled with charity shops and more importantly, has a Subway. I glaced at the prices to make sure I have enough money left to have lunch there.

I looked at the time and wondered if the cinema would be open yet but thought I give it another few moments. So I headed to WHSmiths hoping to get a drink. Well that was till I looked at the price which was something like £1.79. I thought to myself this place is going to be next Woolworths disaster if they don’t lower their prices. I ended up getting a drink at Wilkinsons that was a only 89 pence to get the same drink of Diet Coke.

Bolt the Dog (C) Disney animation

It was ten to midday and therefore I thought as Bolt 3D started at ten past that it might be open. I really should of looked at the opening time before walking into the door. That hurt badly and I felt like a idiot. I recovered the situation by looking at the opening times and sighing. What to do for ten minutes I pondered to myself and then thought when I went into Argos with Dan for some reason.

The memory was when I finished my mock GCSE exam and did it in a different room to most of the year that had Dan and MJ among others. I left my phone on their desk as for once handed it over like you meant to but I forgot to pick it up. So I dashed back to the school and then chased back to Dan as I wanted to say goodbye properly. He asked when my bus was and said I could help him look at pool table stuff in the Argos till it came. Anyway back to the post, it ended up that I spent ten minutes acting like I was looking for stuff in Argos as it was warm place to wait.

When Cineworld did open up, I was first in and got my ticket with some rather expensive popcorn. I was expecting some cardboard glasses for the 3D movie however I had some neat ones which look like the safety glasses they have at schools. I rather enjoyed Bolt 3D and the effects was okay. Amazing would be over doing things but I can understand why Disney want the rest of their animations to be in 3D. I say be at least three rows back from the screen to benefit the most.

When I got out, I headed straight to the bus stop to check how long it will take for the bus to arrive. I had enough time to buy a Sub and therefore ate one whilst waiting for the bus. The bus was late but I wasn’t complaining because I had times when it never arrived before. On the way back in bus I saw a nasty crash with a ambulance and police that was sad to see.

Overall I had good time today. I didn’t feel so bad about being alone after all and it felt good that I could feel my independence. I’m hoping to go to gym soon but it all depending if my mom can give me a lift.

On Saturday I went to the gym and for the first time did my routine without a person assistant which felt good. However I forgot to do the stretches after the warm up which was silly of me. The water that they sell there really annoys me as the label keeps coming off and the plastic is thin. I will have to remember to bring my own for Monday.For some reason I get a rush from the gym and feel alive. its really strange.. I felt warm for most of the rest of the day as well.

Today I went to see ‘He’s Just Not that into You’ and I’ll give it four stars. I thought it was funny, had a good soundtrack and you felt cheerful and smiley at the end of it. I loved their version of ‘Somewhere only we know’ by Keane as they remixed it to work with the scene. I liked how you thought you could guess the storyline but the result was a tad different to what you taught was going to happen. I suck at reviewing movies but that my badly written view.

Talking about Keane, my family is going to see them at The O2 this Friday. I’m a tad worried on if the weather will muck things up and if my sister be able to get down from the North. I emailed their customer support to see what happens if you can’t attend due to extreme conditions however they didn’t want to comment in time for this post. I don’t think I should of mentioned my blog when I contacted them.

My road today..

I finished my last post saying that I hope it wouldn’t snow or if it did that it wouldn’t close the college. Well guess what happened when I woke up late this morning? I looked at my phone for the time and panicked rushing outta bed and putting my college clothes on. I then peered outside the window to get blinded by the white stuff, plenty of the blinking white stuff. My parents confirmed that college wasn’t happening and I felt disappointed.

I went to look at Facebook quickly to see what people was up to with the snow and all. Turns out that they were planning to go to the Abby and make snowmans. I was debating joining them but when I stepped outside to take photos for this blog and twitter I thought otherwise. It was really cold and judging how pale they were in the photos, they felt it. They had a wonderful picture of the market square though with snow and it looked quite odd. It was neat how the council gritted the paths though and it turned out to made good sections for different people creations.

Like most of the week though, I was hanging around the house being bored. I was tempted to tidy it but I lacked the effort or the drive to do so. I had a lovely hot bath though and while the bath was running I repaired this sliding fabric door with matching white duck tape. You could call the repair I did was rather dodgy, neat is most certainly not a word to describe job I did.

Anyway, I really do not want it to snow tomorrow. Well I do as I don’t like Friday mornings but I hoping reverse thingy wotsit will work on the weather system like it did on the last post.

I still think that Dell needs to rethink if having email is a good idea as it just slowed things for me and calling them was the way I sorted the problem out. I also think that they should get people with a more clear voice as I couldn’t understand what was being said half of the time. I don’t care where it is based along I can understand.

Like you might of heard in the news or seen yourself, it snowed well today in the south east England. Its rare to see any snow where I live in Abingdon, so having the amount we got today was impressive. When I arrived it wasn’t soon till Dan and James wanted a snowball fight with me, and I tried to join in but dodging the balls was painful.

Radio was fun as I done most of the work already. I need to go to the station over the week though to get used to their mixers and get the timing of the show on spot. I only have one run to do the radio show with Micheal and S and as the producer I really don’t want to muck things up. Looking forward to doing it though as it shall be fun. Me and Micheal played around the interview as we was bored and produced a remix of it. It is rather strange:

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English went well for achange. It was basically wrapping up the poem lessons so you could do a lovely essay on it. I had to complete a big A3 sheet which was fun. I say that with sarcasm. But it did really fly though the whole hour and a half I had in there.

I spent most of the breaks inside as I didn’t want anymore snow ball fights nor did I want to get cold. I really enjoyed today though and finished early at 4pm.

I went around the park with slightly different people and started in the studio park for a change. I started on Aerosmith and went on it like five times after each other. Each time moving slightly more to the front of it. It much more better at the front of it. I worn my glasses this time as James told me that you could and was strange how you didn’t loose or break your glasses on it.

I was feeling really ill at lunchtime and just wanted a drink but Sam encouraged me to have a meal. At first he thought I didn’t have the money and offered to pay which I thought was nice of him. However I said I just didn’t feel good and paid for it myself.

I had my group photo shoot at 2pm and the group found me and Jessica. We ended up going on this ride where you drive a lawnmower car around a fixed track. I had a faster car than the car in front of me which was annoying as I wanted to go flat out.

At the end of the day I managed to lose both of the group and panicked catching the bus to the hotel. I met up with some people I knew there though. After doing this quiz and the photo shoots outside, we hanged about waiting for the bus. I was on the floor facing the other way and when I dashed for it, I managed to damage my neck and back. I didn’t feel the pain at the time.

At the station, it took ages for check in to open. I was the first person in to it though but ended up having to line my bag up and waiting for a sniffer dog to smell all the bags. This meant that everyone else in the trip went on and I was stuck there till the dog was happy.

The jounary back home is when I noticed I injuryed myself when I sat in my train seat. I couldn’t be as social as I wanted to be as I couldn’t move very much. I went to the cafe though as standing up felt better. I had the last chocolate brownie, a bottle of water and a hot choccie. I loved that brownie when I ate it.

The coach was waiting for us within the Eurostar station and jounary to the college was alright. My mom was already at the college when I got there and got home quickly thankfully.

Found the group I went around yesterday and catched the bus. I can’t be bothered to type about the rides but I had a good day in the parks. (I will add more at a later point) I had lunch in the park and had a nugget meal, notice how it doesn’t mention chicken. Well it defo didn’t taste like chicken. I enjoyed it though..

In the late afternoon, people gathered into my room and began pissing about. I get all worried when people behave like that as part of my autism I think and didn’t want to pay if they broke the fan. Then the subject of shaving James eyebrowns came up and at first they wanted to do it on the top bunk of the bed in the room. I made it clear to do it somewhere else so they moved into next door which was linked.

I was getting worried when they joked about doing it to someone else and I felt unsafe from the point they said that. When I saw that they did one of James eye browns and was what I thought forcing into it, I panicked and told one of the tutors about it. They was pissed that I dubbed them in and had ago at me. I’m a honest person and I don’t make up stuff for whatever the reason. So when Beci asked me what I was worried about, it just flowed out of my month.

I went to my room and secretly cried to myself. I wanted to just go to sleep but ended up slapping water over my face to try to hide the fact I was upset and went with the group to the bus feeling awkward what happened. When I arrived in the village I saw my proper mates Bradley, Tiffany, and Kay and they asked if I wanted to go back to the hotel with them as they sensed that I wasn’t happy. I ended not having dinner and snacking on Crisps and Coke.

I watched Disney channel in their room whilst we stayed up for the late meeting time. When everyone was late for this meeting, they was drunk. Kiraon kept telling everyone that ‘Big men have big willies’ and somebody kept asking me if I liked their hat. It was funny though.

It took ages for me to get to sleep as everyone in my room and the linking one was hyped up from the night out in the bar. This really pissed me off and Sam sensed that I wanted to sleep. He was great as he kept hinting to James to go back to his room. But still, they all mucked about till like 2am.

I was one of the first people at the meeting point at the college. Richard and Bradley beated me though. Richard was in the dry as it was raining but it took me afew moments to realize where he was. Everyone soon followed after me. The A level people wasn’t that social and didn’t mix with the us much. The coach arrived and I was the first person the hand my bag over. I don’t aim to be the first, it just ends up being that way. Didn’t take long to get to London and I wondered about with the group which ended up sitting on the metal seat that felt like that they were frozen cold.

Getting checked in wasn’t bad but it took me along time to get stuff outta my pockets which annoyed peps behind me in the line. When we was in the seating area I took the camera off my neck as it was heavy and I was so tried that I left it behind. However luckily others noticed this in the group and picked it up for me. I felt well embarrassed about that.

Once we got in the Eurostar train itself, it looked well dated inside with the brownish colours and I would thought they would of tarted it up abit. I didn’t think about getting a magazine to read on board the train and wish I did. Everyone ears was popping thoughout the jounary which I didn’t expect to happen but I suppose it made sense as the channel was on top of us.

When we arrived into Disneyland Paris, we checked our bags into the storage and went into the main park with the group being fellow people on my course and Richard. Richard set a misson for Ryan which he set for his older bother which did the trip last year. The mission was to go on the rollarcoaster starting from the bottom being that Cowboy one to Space mountain being the top.

At lunchtime, I ended up eating in pizza place. It was really bad as the pizza wasn’t precut and you had to use these plastic knife and folk with a cardboard box. I just ended up using my hand completely and didn’t eat all of it. I felt well ill afterwards.

Over the morning and after lunch I done most of the roller-coasters which was really good . It was quick it wasn’t raining but as it was cold, the parks are not that busy. I don’t mind going to theme parks when it cold at all. I rather it be cold then hanging ages outside sweating.

In the afternoon we was let into the rooms. I had Sam and Adam in my room and I was secretly happy that I didn’t have anyone I didn’t get on in the room. It was good that everyone a key card to get in to the room meaning that you didnt have to stick together all the time.

In the evening I went into the village with Dan, Sam and Callium which was alright. Ended up eating McDonald’s which was strange seeing how they adapt the menu for the country. Thankfully they had a picture of what I wanted on the counter and I just pointed then paid. On the way back to the bus, I rung my mom and Keane started playing which was ironic as my mom loves them.

At night time, people just went to bed and didn’t piss around much. I woke up loads thoughout the night though and didn’t get a good rest.

I helped out interviewing a assietent director today which meant I held a Zoom in the middle of the table cause the stand didn’t work. It was for the interview feature of the radio show I shall be doing when I’m back from Disneyland. I’ll need to make sure I’ve done all the paperwork and check with the others.

I am really excited about going to Disneyland Paris now. My bag is all packed with the new clothing I got because the other stuff I already had didn’t have the right pockets to keep my valuables such as my mobile phone or wallet in if I go on a roller-coaster or to keep the pickpockets out. I just hope the weather won’t drench me too much in France though I do realise that it won’t be hot. I love trains (not as sad as a train-spotter), so catching the Eurostar is a whole excitement in it self.

Oh, I nearly forgot: Please do the latest poll in the sidebar.. I just wondered how many of my readers are into theme parks.

I had another day at the gym today. This time out of the many things I did was using this machine which you do leg-presses on it. I don’t really find that workout as enjoyable as the others. I do it though if it means that I can get myself in a more healthy state than I currently am in. I am slim and wish to have a tad more weight as I don’t like looking bony.I can see myself going to the gym on a regular basic though.

Recently my mom attended the review evening where my tutor bigs me up and fill my parents with joy. I love seeing my parents feeling like that they got a achieving son. Apparently I won’t find it hard to get the grades to get in to the two year course along that I keep the work up. My tutor was impressed by my maturity however saying that there is some people in the group makes a baby look mature.

Today I had the most slow day ever. I woke up early but somehow managed to leave it late to get of the house. Good job my teacher wasn’t in for the first lesson at college as she would of went mental at me. Walking to college wasn’t that pleasurable as it was really cold today and it were raining heavy in the morning. One arse of a taxi driver nearly soak me by driving though a puddle. All the paths were soaked and filled with puddles especially with the park which reminded me of when I tried doing the Ock Valley walk yesterday. I ended up with so much mud on my jeans.

Now I am considering tidying my room up so its all nice when I return from Disneyland Paris.

Secondly the assistant was a person called Sean for the first two lessons. He is young for the role he is doing and he doesn’t have a clue about anything really. He doesn’t open his mind to different views for a situation which is bad if he want to help people out. He keeps pestering me and I rather he sod off really as he thinks I can’t be arsed when it really isn’t the case.

I had a interview in the afternoon as I applied for the two year course which is the next level up from the course I am doing at the moment. Apparently I might applied a tad too early but my tutor Sue bugged me to submit a applaction in so I did. I got a place for the course along I don’t cock my grades up which is good. At least I don’t have to think about that now.

After the interview I met my mom in the gym she goes to and it was the first time I went to it. After I finally found the correct stairs for the gym that was. I was impressed how clean and shiny it was. It was rather posh and everything was new looking in it. I was thinking of getting some exercise and improve my health after talking to mates which have got six pack and look buff. SoI decided to join it and I got my first appointment on Monday. Yay!

Just now I got a phone call from Dan. I was lying down nearly falling to sleep when a bright light started shining. It turned out to be my phone turned on slient on the desk. I managed to answer the phone in time and I was tried really to understand or talk well. Put a smile on my face when Dan was too out of it to understand how to hang the phone up. I wasn’t going to hang it up when I only just woken up am I.. haha

I wish I just spent that tiny bit more and had Vista on it as then I would of been treated normally. It would seem that the having Linux mean that their customer support freak out as their computers don’t have advice so therefore they blame your problem on Ubuntu and try to use that as a get out clause to direct you away telling you to call Dell Ubuntu.

It is quite clearly that Ubuntu isn’t the reason why my laptop isn’t charging as it doesn’t charge even when it shut down. The reason why it isn’t charging possibly because of a defective battery or a fault on the charging circuitry. Try telling Dell that. Well I did and asked them to have a look and if this is a case replace it under the Warranty. I haven’t yet had a response to this. Not even a automatic ‘We got your message response’.

I might get somewhere if I called them but their opening times is mostly when I’m at college and there not open on weekends. I wish my Dad would of helped me out but he is useless. When I had problems with my phone, he didn’t offer me any help and I was the one getting stressed out calling O2 when I needed to be doing other stuff.

Dell and their Ubuntu can get lost as far as I can see. I’ve been in contact with them I think since late October 2008 and their support hasn’t been impressive at all. Taking something like 2 weeks to response to a message is not appectable not is being treated like a idiot. I still got this laptop problem meaning it more harder for me to take notes at college.

Update: It would seem to be a more commen problem than I thought it was. I’m not buying anything Dell in the near future then.

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After that I had my Morning break filled with a last moment Disneyland Paris meeting that mainly was about not to act like a fool and suppiled me with a checklist. I got told who I am sharing the room with and I am happy that they won’t act stupid. I have to bring my passport (so they have a photocopy incase I loose it) with the signed letter in tomorrow. I was annoyed afterwards though as some people I wanted to hang with went back to their ICT course by then.

After that rather short break I had English which was okay as the learner teacher was on today which meant it had a alright peace and wasn’t too dull. Also I got out early which meant that when I went to the cafe I caught my tutor getting pissed off with acouple of people in my group cause they didn’t go to their Maths lesson.

Next up, Research. What is this lesson, I thought to myself as this was a new thing on my timetable and first Monday of the term. It turned out to be time that I start the paperwork for my final media project for this course. I wish they would of given some warning so I could of got my head in gear beforehand.Mewh!

Meanwhile when I was walking though town the day aftter Woolworths closed in my town, I peeked though the window to see the staff was clearing all the shelfs and signs away. I took acouple of photographs but I felt bad as their all lost a job so didn’t hang about too long. I’m unsure if anything will be moving in to there too soon though as the town is rather dead anyhow in terms of shops.

After park and riding things up, I went straight to Topman and tried on their hats. It seems quite social place to hang in the late afternoon as it was busy but strangers was talking with each other. Rather strange and then once I picked the stunning hat I wanted, the person at the kiosk I seemed to know from shopping there before. Topman is one of my dream student jobs I have in mind. Maybe once I can drive?

Pizza Express was delicious as it always is. This time I had a desert there which is unusual which was a chocolate fudge cake with ice cream. This mix well with each other and I think it one of the many good combinations you can have for a desert. Next stop.. the playhouse!

After collecting the tickets, we all had a drink at the rather busy bar before finding our seat. Sleeping Beauty was enjoyable and it finished a good night out with my parents. I was dreading abit beforehand but glad I stuck it out. The day after tomorrow I have my last day of my Christmas break off and then its the delights of college. I’m guessing it will be a long day in the house on my own. Oh well, I have the Wii and Messenger I suppose.

If only I was paid to create this post, I was only inspired to post about Pepsi as I got money from parentals to get a create of the stuff from the sad Woolworths closing down sale that is going on. Mad that I paid a whole £18 quid for 24 bottles but I am making a saving somehow as it normally a £1 a bottle in college.

Happy Christmas every reader!

Yeah, I spent time on that. Don’t say I don’t ever treat ya..

I offered to melt the chocolate as I liked doing it before when I did them chocolate cornflake cake things and rather enjoyed it. I didn’t know how long it would take to melt this amount of chocolate and how I had to stir flour etc manually with a woodern spoon. Gripping it for that long cains belive me.

All this hard labour paid off when I smelt it baking, it was lovely. I’m looking forward for the eating of the cake tomorrow when it all set. Its going to be good!

It was quite a shock as when I last been there recently it was quite full still. They must of discounted things even more than before. It came to the point now where they selling the fixures of the store and as a child growing up with their store, I never of dreamt that as a teenager I could buy a store shelf from them.  I took pictures of some of the place being empty as its upsetting when you finally can see in vision that it shall be gone by 2009.

Farewell good old Woolies.. You shall be missed by me.

Looking forward for new year to come as I’m travelling even more than currently which should be the best thing for the blog. Some of the places include the local panto, The O2, and Disneyland. Gonna be exciting times ahead and a massive rollarcoaster as I continue with my media course. However I’m sure things will have turned out fine this time next year. I hope I won’t be eating my words..

Its strange thinking that this time last year I were filling in a application form for college and was at school doing my GCSEs. It feels much longer than that yet I can look back at some of it like it happened yesterday. I’m glad that I brought a yearbook now as I can flick though it and laugh.

Photos are coming soon once that lovely N95 is in my hands.

I have managed to bug O2 enough now for them to give me a phone back even though it been since early November I sent my phone off to them for repair. I called them up and pressed 1 to chase up my phone to suddenly getting straight though which shocked me a little as I was thinking I was going to have to wait on the line. It was really good though as the guy I spoke to understood and offered me a n95 as a replacement. I know this phone isn’t the latest  phone about but it better than the Orbit 2 for me and most certainly better than the buggy Nokia flip phone I’m currently using.

Another thing I am excited about is that I am planning to make my own server using a cheap old computer I brought for £26 on eBay. I am going to call this project Stephan Seabrook as I am a fan of Stephan fry which has a video supporting Linux and I love Seabrook crisps. The main thing about this project is trying to be cheaper than hosting I brought before. The hosting is not going to be a replacement for the blog though..

Anyway I better wrap this post up as I got lots to do today. It is rather hard to blog if you don’t do it regularly..

I’m quite strange when I order stuff in there as I have cheesy garlic bread with chips and I have Diet coke for the drink. It works quite well as a combination I find.. I haven’t been there for ages though and I feel bad not support local when I popped into Coffee Republic acouple of days ago. I’m so glad that Coffee Republic opened as I disliked Costa prices.

When it becomes summer I will be tempted to have a Toffee Crisp in Coffee Republic. I see how they have copied the idea of Shakeaway in their stores. I still think that Abingdon would still be a good place for a Shakeaway as people can buy one and wonder around the river or look at some of the amazing parks that are around Abingdon.

On Thursday it was fun as the tech received the brand new batch of cameras and therefore for some reason we decided dressing up and taking photos of each other. Yeah, it was rather random but I really enjoyed all the posing and flashing going on for some reason. When I got back home (as its a half day), I chatted to Dan which was slow as its always is when I chat to him on messenger. I say something and it takes him a age to respond. Later on in the evening I chatted to Louis which is another mate when I was at school. He sent me this flag that he says he made in Photoshop but had the looks of being drawn in Paint bless him.

On Friday, I felt really tried as I was awake too long before going to sleep meaning I couldn’t sleep until early morning. I knew I should of checked the timetable to check what time the day started at college as a lesson was cancelled but I just remembered 10:30 from a conversation from last night so I went for that. I was delayed getting there ‘early’ due to frigging black ice slowing me down then when I finally got there people just laughed at me which was nice. It turned out the lesson started at 10am. Great. What made that lesson even more great was that the teacher wouldn’t sign me off meaning that I have to come in in my free time to do work I have completed. Logical I know..

The day did get better though as the double video production went smoothly mainly as its paperwork that nearly been completed anyway. I somehow came out at the same timing as Dan and some people know from knowing Dan. I like how people I already know from Didcot change their walking speed to match everybody else, it something that annoyed me from people I only know that from college as they seem to be like ‘Nope, I’m not speeding up.. tractor speed is fine for me’.

It turned out that I ended up hanging in town with them which some of was outside Nationwide as one of them is a smoker that needed a tenner but her card was out of date and they didn’t send her a new card for some random reason. Anyway it was good as I catched up with Dan chatting about all kinds of stuff,

I had chips in a cone the decided on walking back home and meanwhile of doing this I saw my mom in the traffic and dashed in to her car which was going back into town as she heard about the Woolworth sale. It wasn’t that worth it! You get what I did..

Another thing annoyed me that as people such as mates and family read this blog which I do appreciate and does have it benefits but it does mean I have to limit what I am saying and can’t be as honest as i would like to be. I stuck on creating a new blog and keep this one going or what. I don’t want shut out my mates and family from seeing a blog from me but its drives me nuts that I can’t write posts because this and that.

I think that I know what I am going to do. I’m going to create posts for this blog still but on a more daily basic post on a new serect blog. I don’t think fellow viewers of this blog will notice anything as it will only mean that the posts will be written before hand instead of being posted straight away.

In the photo I took you can’t really see it but they have attached these stupid flags to the car which look really out of place on it and odd. i like seeing things neat and this just plainly annoys me..

The reason I say so call local station is because apart from the news and the breakfast slot on it, nearly everything else is sourced from its parent network which goes to all of the other so called local stations. The logo is just a template which looks more like the style of what the new Pepsi design looks like than a radio station. I prefer this one, I loved that fox and I was so miffed what they got rid of the poor thing. I blame them fox hunters.

I won’t be too upset when the station gets re-branded to a even more generic ‘Heart Oxford’ as all its proper identity got stripped ages ago which is sad. Saying that I am not a proper expert of Fox FM as my hate of it content has meant that i heavn’t really listened to it much unless its been on in a mates car. I rather opt to KUBE radio as I can keep up to date all stuff Keele, and when on the move Jack FM, sometimes Oxford 107.9 but mostly national BBC Radio 1.

It turns out that I wasn’t supposed to use the wifi and that they decided to disable it by uninstalling the driver when they logged in as admin. I think that this is ridiculous that I am not able to do research at home anymore on it and it renders the laptop completly pointless for doing coursework. I can’t be bothered to lug that frigging thing in anymore if its only pupose is doing word processing.

Another thing that annoyed me today is that the girls is my group that act like they are twins said that they wanted to find me a girlfriend but I would need a makeover and to act like somebody I am not. I don’t know if they implying that I am ugly or if they were just joking but I was abit offended. I think I rather not have a makeover thank you very much..

Normal blogging will resume soonish, it just I am bogged down with lots of work I am supposed to be doing. On the way out of the loos just before I was going to English, I noticed this stupid sign. How can people blow their nose on the wall? Does he mean stop drying your hands on the wall? How silly..

One of the things that I wish I could of done is clipped the duck tape so that the length of the tape was even as every time I look at that photo I get bugged.

update: I haven’t been to this loo again since but most of the notices in the loos around the campus have been removed. I can understand why somebody could get annoyed by some of the unthoughtful students but using the word handkerchief is just going to mean that the sign is going to be ignored by most people.

At the end of the day I know that the horror movie won’t be the greatest thing ever.. I just want to get the task done and to have enough time to edit it. i don’t think the group should be wasting time to make sure it perfect, just anything will do for this late stage.

Anyway, I was a zombie for the other group after many wasted moments of some of the group going off to get a lab coat and setting up the camera. It took such along time for them to do anything and was too dragged out than it should of been. When it did get the point of doing the part I was in it involed falling onto the grass which I wasn’t pleased about. Someone whack me forward when this happen and now my nose fucking hurts as it is bruised and my glasses went wonky. Wonky glasses is frigging annoying and take such along time to correct them again to be just right.

I can’t wait till the weekend as its my 17th birthday and I shall be up to stuff. Its all very exciting being at the age to drive however it is scary as I am unsure if I will manage to drive a car nevertheless pass the driving licence. I could do so much more in my life if I could drive.

I don’t understand why the new Subway in Abingdon isn’t adveristing the fact that it has opened up on 22nd October or why they haven’t added themself to the location finder on the website. I feel like it is a serect club that only people in the know go to.

I was meaning to do a review of the place and have photos of the place but I thought that would verge on to weridoness. I did have a dream that I did a tour of the UK going to all the new store openings.. That would rock as they normally hand out free subs when they open a store up. Well they did at Didcot and I think that they regretted it as the line was really massive.

But yeah, the Abingdon Subway is located right next to Argos and it is really nice inside. The placement of the stuff inside it was rather strange though. You have to walk from one side to another which feels like miles when it probs only a few steps. It is the first Subway I came arcoss which sells doughnuts and I would of brought one if I knew how much they cost when I was buying my fav Sub. Meatballs!

As I got there, my mom warned me that she will go if I don’t back in a certain amount of time as she has got a gym slot to go to. I was nervous when I got out of the car that she would of gone when I got back and hoping that I have got money for the bus home. As I walked though the gates, I felt strangely at home and it felt so comfortable. I thought I might of had to sign in but when I asked reception they just reminded me where the exam office was.

When I looked around for that door as it all looked the same, a women asked if I was looking for her. I responded that I came in to get my exam stuff where she looked into the exam office. She responded that I should hang about for 20 min and I didn’t feel like arguing. I went outside where The Gloop hang out (its some year 10’s that now year 11 call themselves that I was friends with) and they greeted me with a nice group hug. That what I really miss is this sort of friendship I had with people in that school. I quickly told them what I was up to and what I was doing at college. I really wanted to stay some more but I was worried for two reasons. I not really supposed to be on site and I got not alot of time till my mom would go.

I said goodbye and dashed to my mom car telling her the situation. She drove into town centre to waste a few moments looking at the shitty shops they have and debating to get something to eat. I didn’t have anything to eat as I wanted to get back to the school so I could get a lift back home. As soon I was on site, I dashed up the stairs and knocked on the exam office door. I didn’t wait for them to let me in and demanded my stuff. The women that talked to me before gave me such a dirty look but thankfully there was a nice women that helped me out.

I got the brown envelope with the exam stuff in it whilst dashing down the steps and running to the car. I was so happy to see it was still there and I got home. All the feelings of maybe I should of stayed on has vanished now and I feel like I could do stuff again like I used to. I have also got Dan in the past, and hopefully I can look for other people to go out with. I will always love him and miss him but he only want to be friends with me which is fine.

On Saturday I arrived late morning and I didn’t do much apart from settling in to the house and stocking up things like bread and butter. I had such a nice breakfast which was a meatball sub from Subway. I enjoyed every bite as I was so hungry. When I arrived at the station, I changed the return ticket to move it a day later and was chuffed that I ordered a 1st class ticket. It costed me a £10 fee.

On Sunday I shoved some newspapers in some of the nearby house and was relived when my sister announced to me that she fed up with that job as it the winter and not as safe or fun as it is in the summer. Some of the places on the route got really steep hills and I do wonder how she hasn’t broken her neck so far.

On Monday I think I just lazed about and watched Saw because it was on television and I just found it was mainly gore. I really liked the concept behind the movie but I would never ever want that to be real life though.I think I would of been really confused about the whole thing if I didn’t look up the movie on wikipedia.

On Tuesday, I went into Keele and went in to the coffee place to meet my sister as she went in by motorbike. She was a tiny bit annoyed to find it was snowing outside because of it but she enjoyed it and proceeded to write a lovely message to her girlfriend which was sweet. I think I dropped into NAGs to see how they were doing but I didn’t notice a tweet to say there wasn’t any room because my small Acer One battery ran out. I also DJed at KRAP. It was very old school as I just shoved my sister cds in a bag and catch the bus as I didn’t have the time to listen some tunes and burn a cd. The stuff you DJ with is quite easy to work.

On Wednesday, I co hosted a show at lunch time on Keele’s student radio station. It was great fun but my finger aked afterwards cause I was forced to be refreshing the messages page cause a fault with the server meant that the station was running on temp server whilst they sort the problem out.

On Thursday, I went to Alton Towers. I shall talk on this futher on another post as it deserves a post for itself.

Then on friday, I went into Hanley. Look around in the shops and found myself a hulk cap that I liked and Much Ado about Nothing on DVD which shall be useful for revising English at home. I was well chuffed by the discount of 50p. Yeah! I can spend this 50p on a chocolate. The train arrived 20 min late in the evening but the 1st class travel was great. they improved muchly since was time I 1st classed it up. They had food I liked for once and I had my money worth of ‘freebies’ they offered.

So yeah. that was my week off spent in Stoke. I enjoyed every second of it but now I got to live with the fact that I got some typing up to do. Oh well.. better get stuck in!

I feel my single relationship status when I see other people cuddling and being romantic in general. I miss I am so glad that I haven’t added many people from my college as some of them would be surpized with some of the stuff on it. I been thinking how odd and sometimes painful it is still meeting up and being friends that you no longer hooked up with and seeing them snog and hug someone else. Dan that is, I so wish I blogged more about him.

I haven’t seen Megan in ages and she only lives behide the house of mine. That another person I went out with however with her I think I made her have a great hate for me. I don’t know why, maybe cause I didn’t feel much love for her. I never kissed with her. I did offer to go out again with her and she was like, fuck off.

Anyways, my fingers are hurting already as I’m writing this on a small keyboard of a Acer One. I nearly paniced as the wifi stopped working after a upgrade but a backport sorted the problems out. Haha, I said backport, I’m a proper geek.

I will try and get some more details on the Subway development and maybe some photos. This will have be some time next week as I am travelling to good old Stoke for half term as I felt I would be more bored right here and spending some time with people more towards my age would be nice for a change. I love my parents but its not the same.

I shall not buy tickets too far in advance in the future. I am forced to pay £10 extra as I want to change the date of when I am travelling back. Not too bad. I was scared that my ticket said I couldn’t change it at all. I have to see how it goes when I try to change it.

When I got in the room, I got handed back this working in a team booklet which I did at the start of college. Why am I the only one to remember we did this? Anyway, I didn’t need to fill anything in as I bothered to fill it all in the first place and pass the thing.

Sue (our tutor) asked for some people to pick the cameras up from Richard so I joined Sam and Ryan as I was bored stiff. I got told that the cameras have some expressive new rechargeable batteries and to murder anyone who tries to chuck them away.

Once we reached the town centre and paired up in groups.. Time to shoot! Even though I had my own camera, the group told me I could use the college one as nobody else in the group wanted to use it. I didn’t really stick with my group. People were saying that ‘Eddie you’re not in your group’ taking things way too seriously. Along I stuck near with other college people, there not really a problem is there? I can’t be arsed to talk about the rest of the college trip out but it was a nice change to the normal Thursday.

I moaned to my Mom that my hair needed a haircut and she managed to blag a slot at the hairdressers. I am a happy bunny now as I have my spikey hair look again. I think I will bother more to spike it up than I did before at college.

I have received my 16 – 25 railcard which means I can make epic saving on my train travel. Like it only cost £9 to get to Reading from Didcot or £20 to Stoke from Oxford.  I really wished I wait acouple of days before I spent £60 on tickets when I could get it for £20.

I can’t wait for tomrrow, I’m really bored. It made a little better as I am listening to my sister show on Kube radio however I don’t know whats I am going to do.

Today was crappy for me. In the morning I wasn’t awake ( wanting to sleep in lesson), and the task wasn’t exciting. One thing I told about is that some people think that Star Wars isn’t a sci-fi but a western based in space. In some ways it is I suppose. I think that you could say that it follow more conventions of a western then a sci-fi, however I can’t remember Star Wars.

In the afternoon I was holding a piece of paper for white balance when we were moving around filming leaving half of the group behind and that was of the brain deadening I’ve done. The group was too massive and most people couldn’t have a role.

Next time in that lesson though, we have been spilt into groups of four and I am okay with the people I am with. We are going to make a documentary and we already have some ideas. I hope the group can get to Didcot! *hint hint wink wink*

Then it was English. Now a week ago I thought it would be a good idea for some stupid reason to try a couple lessons in another group. I totally regret this and I will have to tell them to move me back to the overcrowded group I was in before. Neither groups are perfect but at least I prefer Shakespeare comedy over tragedy.

My music tease has managed to get really bad. I am sick what I am listening to. Maybe I should start listening more to Radio more often. Well I am defo going to listen in to my sister show tomorrow lunchtime.

I didn’t like the Linux that came with in. I was way too simple and I felt like they didn’t trust me and that it was like something that RM had fiddled with as it was so restricted with right click menu being turn off and stuff. I knew I can turn that on but still, it didn’t feel right.

So long story short, I managed to get Ubuntu on a USB stick. I did managed to get it working with the stable version but I had problems with sound and the wifi. however I discovered that the beta version fixes all the problems and I only had to unclick something and reboot to get the wifi working. Good times.

The highlight of the week has been the photography as it involved playing in the dark room with the groovy red light. The dark room is massive and isn’t a poky small room like my grotty old school one was like. The tutor clams that their dark room is the biggest one for a college in the south. Size does matter it would seem. I might scan in some of my masterpieces I have made.

I have gotten in the flow of college now and is more relaxed about the whole thing. It is nice that there is some faces from my old school but not too many. I don’t feel so home sick if you know what I mean if I have few faces from the past. Yeah, the college couldn’t afford the whole body and only brought their faces.. Oh well.

David is a greatest person ever. For people who don’t know who David is, he is somebody who was in my form group at school and now is in Didcot Sixth Form. He invited me to Ultimate Events but now he have sent me the yearbook I forgot to pick up. They have some great photos of me in there however I laugh at a typo in the book. They mistaken a photo of a group of people I was with that it was in France however it was in Convent Gardens.

Wait I got it wrong. NAGs are the great people ever with the greatest radio show that your ears will thank you for. I listened to their unofficial show and named a dog, to find that it was good enough to win a whole month worth of flapjacks. Don’t have a frown on your face that you didn’t win, and that you are lacking a box of flapjacks. You can win some every Tuesday when you listen to their show, its true!

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I can’t ask for a extended deadline I don’t think and I feel that would be unfair to the other people which had their heads on gear. I was just focused on getting the radio thing done over the weekend and I just didn’t remember about this.

Nobody is giving me any support, my dad tries his best but is hopeless at this stuff, my mom is moaning at me and can’t really help. I just don’t know what to do about this. I really got a mind-block on this and I wish I asked for more help but Sam isn’t that great for advice. For example, when the other person of the group I was in being a nob and I asked her for help, she did fuck all. And I feel she would just say some senseless garbage that just slows me down.

At the moment I just feel like giving up. I must be totally stupid.

I am panicking as I can’t manage to login to 1and1 control panel to make sure that the payment is sent and they sent me the threatening letter which has scared me. Basically they tried using my Paypal acouple of times, and I forgot that I deleted my card on it. I haven’t got anytime anyway to sort this out and I was already stressed about essays. I just told my dad to sort it out and gave him the letter, he got plenty time off at the moment as he recovering from this op.

The morning was fine but this afternoon was a drag. The first lesson of the afternoon was English which I totally loathe as the amount of people in it. I was gobsmacked and pissed to find that the other groups only have 15 people in them. I am going to moan at the helpers I got, as I want to get moved over. Then it was factual programming, which was wasted cause we didn’t get how to use Adobe Premier properly till the end. I wish was good at editing.

All my current life woes is lightened by listening to Keane new album that I received today.

Once the hour journey to High Wycome was finished after sitting in the back of a car with a manic dog which has a obsession on rubbing it bum in your face. I went into my grans house and she was shocked as we didn’t tell her that we where visiting as who does like speaking to their gran on the phone when they are in their 80s.

Once she had settle down about the fact that we were there, she preceeded to pull her thousers down. I was thinking ‘WTF WTF My gran is stripping! Eww.’ and it was because she wanted my mom to look at her knees as they looked nasty.

As my mom is a nurse, my gran asked her about the pill she is taking and I listened to what each pill did what. At my gran age, I would only take stuff which stops you from pain and I couldn’t give a piss about high blood pressure if I lived that long. I don’t think I will reach that age myself.. If I listen to them depressing programs which I would so axe if I was channel controller.

In the process on getting a extra chair for the table, I somehow managed to break it. I was hoping it was broken in the first place and it was loose or something. Nobody noticed I don’t think when I quickly put it back together.

After that, I pretty much did some more of that radio essay as I was bored stiff and then went back to face another hour jounary to have more dog bum rubbed in my face. The way back from my grans always seem longer than getting there.

James, Micheal, and me was at standing up as all the seats was taken up when we were waiting for bus when a chavett (which is a teen mum) whacks her pram into my feet. She woke me up dammit.. She asks if she could get pass even though she could anyway. I mutter to myself ‘No you cant’ thinking she wouldn’t hear me but I said it too loudly. I am a baddass.

This meant she got pissed off at me and I nearly risked getting stabbed or something like a slap. i thought she would just carry on walking on but she stopped infront of me and starting talking quite fast. I thought if I just stared down and didnt give her eye contact would mean that she knew I wasn’t starting a fight. I think it worked..

College has really changed my behaviour alot.. At school I hardly swore and was the teacher pet for everything. Being a school kid you could get away with something like that like I always did when i caught the bus. not without a uniform it would seem.

Eugh! i got to carry on writing a ten page eassy. lovely..

Didcot carpark has upgraded their ticket machines and now you can use any debit/credit card that has chip and pin. I love new ticket machines as they look so shiny. The car park used to cost so much but now its a flat rate of 4 quid which isn’t bad for a day parking.

Once the delayed train took me from Didcot to London, we headed for Convent Gardens as I didn’t have a proper look at it the last time I went to London. On the underground, we didn’t go directly go there but went to a nearby underground station as my dad is silly. As soon as we got out, we looked for coffee as we needed a drink. It turned out to be a Starbuck we ended up going to.

I was annoyed as I didn’t ask for cream but yet they proceeded on adding cream on top of my drink. I love their simple mugs with the Starbucks logo and I was tempted to sneak a mug out but I was scared of getting caught.

We carried on the quest to head to Convents Gardens when we noticed a massive bag shop. I went in and my dad proceeded to buy a red bag I looked at even though I was thinking of looking else where before going back. I wish I looked closer at the bag at the time, as went i got back home I noticed that the zip jams at the top.

After that shop we managed to arrive find the place. However, Convent Gardens wasn’t as exciting as I thought it would be because it is filled with cafes and girlie shops. And I still couldn’t find that shop which sells the Mountain Drew that I live for. One coffee shop was handing out samples so I drank some free fruit tea. It was sweet so I didnt mind it but Im not into tea that much.

After we finished looking at Convent Garden, we popped over to see something court road that is the underground station nearby. We mainly went there to see how overpriced the computers are and I loaded this blog in as many shops as I could. I find it amazing that they decide to hook the Internet to the laptops. One of the places had this television rotating around and I thought that it was pointless. How could you watch it without getting dizzy?

After going there, we didn’t have much else to do. We wondered around London and went to places such as Chinatown (where I got this funky free Chinese newspaper)

I will bother to post about the London trip I did today later on, but does anybody know why there is a fat kid on the tube. It didnt have anything but this kid on a black background and I thought it was rather strange.

Today went alright but it did have some downfalls. The laptop that I recently got given by the college looks like it has a wide-screen and it is generally a bulky heavy thing to lung about. I am about to order a new bag that will suits my needs better. The other downfall is not knowing when to shut my month and when to talk. I’m cringing at some of the nonsense I said today and the amount of moaning I did. It was really childish of me and it something I will need to adjust over time.

I was nearly late today as I didn’t realized that a more heavy bag will slow you down. I should of set off abit more earlier than I did but hay ho. I wasn’t late though. I hope I have met the standards and won’t have a warning letter. I gone in on time and sometimes early, I haven’t chatting too much in the lessons, and I haven’t been nasty as normal. So unless I am missing something that is strange, I think i have met their high standards.

I just went out to a pub as it was my mom’s birthday today. I feel guilty that I haven’t really made her day that special today however I might think something I should do with her on the weekend that she like doing like painting a plate or something like that.

I had to sleep when i got back as I was knackered. i think I need to sleep at 9:30ish rather than the 11ish I was going to sleep at as it shows that I am not getting enough sleep. I don’t think it will be a regular thing of being tried once I’ve a done a whole term when I got used to everything.

I was talking about what i was thinking of doing for my birthday present in November and I was thinking in the lines of going to Alton Towers around October with some of the Stoke people and having afew driving lessons once I’m 17.

For the morning, the group got spilt up into two and I felt that it went better as the atmosphere was more calm and relaxed which I like working in myself. I had to fill in some pages for Tutorial and written some notes for Media Audiences. I think it was mainly about young audiences but it had a outdated Powerpoint which had a out of date Hollyoaks people and logo.

As abit of a surprise, my tutor said my laptop has arrived today and I had to pick the laptop up from the ICT helpdesk on my lunch break, discovering it’s a brand new Viglen Futura Durus. I forgotten that I asked for a laptop and I really wasn’t expecting a brand new one. The only downfall about the thing is that it is heavy. The carrying bag which be put aside as it is crap and I will shove the laptop in my normal bag.

I waited for Micheal and spoke to some people whilst I did but I got fed up when it looked like it about to rain and felt lazy so I got picked up which was great as I got some fast food on the way home.

I had a smooth long day at college and it started at 9ish and finished at 4ish without many breaks. I don’t like long breaks though as they can’t get boring even if you are hanging with some people that love chatting. I love chatting but I have to be careful not to talk too much as I seem to talk shit and look like a total twat. I don’t want to look like a twat nor I don’t like dog poop.

I been introduced to the world of Wimamp and I love it. I didn’t download and use it for  awhile as the last time I used it, I thought it was a pile of rubbish that nobody knows what to do with. Thankfully AOL has done their unknown magic to the software to be quite good.

Ryan randomly handed me some money that he apparently owned me however I can’t remember ever lending money to him. I won’t refuse people giving me money though unless they are mentally ill which I don’t think Ryan is, and I spent this quid on a McFlurry. It was cold and nice.

Its the second day into the proper timetable and I have realized something. It feels so slow when people are chatting throughout the lesson. Well for me it is as I try not to talk as I think its being rude to the tutor teaching. I like quiet when I’m thinking as I can think more and it hurts more otherwise.

I’m enjoying the course so far but I’m dreading the length of Fridays as it proper crammed with lessions. I suppose I have a whole weekend to relax on but it still will take some getting used to. I have to get used to working 9 to 5 though if I ever get in to a workplace.

I’m never walking into a Pets at Home now that I haven’t got a job with them after the free work I did. They must be saving loads by getting idots like me to do some work before the interview. I don’t know.. maybe I should infect the web with a nasty rumour to damage to company.. or maybe not. Tempting though.

I thought it was going to rain today but it didnt and I was warm with the jacket on. It was so good that when I didnt have to do this test in the morning I walked home cause of the spare time I had. I had a lovely chip butty cause it didn’t rain.

I might meet up with Michael and Adam tomorrow as I have the day off and Michael lives nearby. Its sucks that I’m going to the doctors in the morning though but though the powers of messenger I sorted it out so I can meet them later on possibly.

To get there I managed to get a lift with my Mum. She thought she would try to avoid the traffic by going a different route but it didn’t really do much difference as we clashed with the school run. However, I was one of the first people to arrive at the meeting point. It was raining lightly which was a pain but it didn’t stop me not diving for cover. I am manly dammit! The market was there and it was selling some real crap that you normally see in charity shops. Also there was these random dull coloured stones on sale which was pointless.

Once every media student from each of the college campuses arrived (some I never saw before in my life but they wasn’t that social to us), we walked to the cinema to the displeasure to some vechiles on the road which had to wait for a whole crowd to cross the road because we could. Go us! It wasn’t a complicated walk as it was a straight line but some of the paths was narrow which sucks when you are in a massive crowd.

There wasn’t any waiting outside when we arrived at the Phoenix cinema and went straight to the seating as the college rented it out. We was there to see a movie called ‘The Wackeness’ that had lots of scenes of drug use, boobies and bare bums. Mmm, It was alright I suppose but it could of moved faster in parts as it felt really long. I felt like I entered the place as a 16 year old and left as a 50. It didn’t help that I had a piece of paper stuffed in my back pocket that I forgotten about that made sitting on uncomfortable and that the room was stuffy.

I left with the shock of sun light, walking back to the city centre with some people I met and some mates managing to go a different route to the main group of students. We laughed at the market again when we saw this cowboy jacket and some lame dresses. I stared at some movie posters but it ended up with me leaving them to it as I got fed up with their slow speed.

I decided to skip lunch in Oxford but should of brought a drink when I dashed to the bus stop. I couldn’t make my mind up with what bus I should catched. I know which two I wanted but it ended up with me going on the slow one as the express bus wouldn’t take my tenner as she already gave change for a tenner. Dam her.

I got in Abingdon for late lunch at Dominos which I ate on the jounary walk home. I had great pleasure eating the pizza whilst walking and staring at the traffic. I’m multi talented.. what can I say? I couldn’t eat my dinner which consisted of fish and chips as I was feeling sick again. I’m hungry now though so I think its a case of microwaving it. How yummy is that.. Not! :[

I have tomorrow off but it will be a case of slumping around the house feeling unwell yet again feeling starving as I don’t feel like eating as I hate being sick. I need to eat something though as I’m slim currently.

Today I met even more people around college and made mates with some of my fellow students I learn with. It was rather surprising when I managed to make people laugh as at college as I never managed it before. It was the first time I decided to hang off site and it was a successful as I talked to random people. Only downfall that as it just off site, most if them will be smokers. It was less boring than staying on site though.

At college was a small day. I decided to full in this booklet before going in to get it out of the way and it meant that I could go out faster. I didn’t have to do much apart from doing a A4 page about me which was mostly due to doing all the work.

As everyone did everything that we needed to do, we were ahead of the timetable and was let out early as this fun surpize didn’t happen. This mean’t I went up to Didcot to meet up with a sister friend that I become friendly with. She was on a lunch break from a clothing shop. I had some chips at Sainsbury.

I met a new group of mates on Thursday and I hanged with them today which was good. I randomly said that wanted to stroke this broken lighter on the floor and this ended up one of them sending a text to his sister that was on another table that we could see. We were thinking of things we could send but it ended up with ‘Eddie wants to stroke you’.. It was rather funny.

The two groups I was with today worked much more better than the different one I had last Thursday which was dreadful. I was able to have a say and other people listened to take my advice. I was mainly filling in a green booklet and wondering around campus for photos.

I learnt about this Mirosoft program called Photo story and I think I’m going to download it and have a heads up on using it.

In two months time I will be 17. Yay!

I managed to get myself wet today as I was searching for a trolley at Tescos and it took awhile for some more to arrive. For a change I went to their Cafe which isn’t amazing place but I was upset as their coffee machine wasn’t working.

Since the 2007 flooding that happened I was worried since when it rained but today the heavy rain didn’t really fraze me much. I don’t like the rain but it not that bad I suppose.. at least I don’t live a country where there is volcanoes or earthquakes which damage places. I don’t think this country is that crap as it made out to be as there is much worse places to be at.

The college has treated me yet again even though I haven’t even had a full week yet. Media department has decided that their media students are going to go to the cinema. Maybe we will go behind the scenes? I’m quite excited about Thursday.

I thought I couldn’t post today as it took lots of trys to get Firefox working. I refuse to use Internet Explorer.

I got picked up and got there early with my mum and sister to find that they running late. That isn’t abnormal for my dentist. It probably like that with every NHS dentist. I don’t know..

Anyway, my dentist poked around my freshly brushed month to moan about how I haven’t brushed it today, (I must of done such a bad job..) and then proceeded to poking it till he frigging made a hole. I need a filling because of that. I was quite annoyed.

My back is painful as I had to sit on these badly designed brightly coloured plastic bucket seats that looked wore out. If you know that it will overrun then you should supply something that you can sit in comfortably whilst waiting. If they replaced them seats with anything else, whatever you replace them with would be majorly better.

I’m going to have a bath now before I have a early sleep. Happy times..

It was really strange with groups on the first day but its getting better already. I disliking the breaks at the moment as I’m stoned bored. I really need to find some good mates I can have a laugh with as the current people I hang with just act like nobs. Hhmm

Today wasn’t good as the group I was with didn’t work well with this chav who wanted to be director but didn’t really direct or manage the group really well. He needed to tell what people was meant to do and planned as a group before we started filming. I would of done a much better job at it! And to top it off, it was outside filming with heavy rain so my afternoon dentist appointment looked really glorious to me.

There is a lot of sexy people at college which is good eye candy for me. It been like the first time I been properly attracted to girls. I had to control myself not to drool over them. I just wanted to cuddle everyone in reaching distance. Well within certain conditions that they wasn’t old.

I’m one of the eight from my college to first get the NUS extra card as I was a early ordering the card and ordered the 2007 one by mistake, however NUS noticed though and corrected it for me. NUS has aload of website bugs to smooth out before uni students get their hands on the website.

I will be taking more photos within the few weeks. I got tomorrow off so I’m going into Oxford. Haha!

I have been taking steps to recover though such as having some extra sleep today and trying not to move about too quickly. When I first tried to get some nap, I got a call from a nationwide pet store responding to the job application I submitted a couple of weeks ago. They want me to do a few hours of work on Thursday doing all the different things I would be doing on the job to see if I still want to work for them. This cheers me up.. I just wished that I asked what I supposed to wear.

Anyway I better get something else to eat before I decide to go to sleep again.

Does anybody listen back to their voice and cringe? I know that I do. It something I will have to get over with as I’m doing Media for hopefully three years if it goes all well. I really hope I get a C in English this time round. I hope the saying ‘third time lucky’ is true. My parents will pay to get all the tuition I need to get this C!

Today post photo is from the bike ride I did a couple of days ago which was a failure. It was a failure as I was trying to cycle the whole way to the collage and I only went half way. It was also a failure as I nearly went into five cars (one of which was a cop car) and mu bum was numb by the end of the ride. I need a gel saddle..

I’m glad that I didn’t go out today as I planned as I would of probably been sick on some random child. (Not like I watch The Inbetweeners.) I woke up today and I just wanted to go back to sleep staying in bed. It been awhile since I ever felt like that. I think I got up at 8amish went downstairs to say ‘Hi’ and then went back to sleep to wake up at noon.

I feel complete since I got given my results. It felt so good knowing that I will never have to go near Didcot if I don’t want to and this feeling also meant the relationship which I had feels closed now. I’m so relieved about it all. I couldn’t stayed on at the sixth form even I had place there as I had such a urge to punch the headteacher.

Currently my legs feels like I want to stretch them constantly, my head feels like my heart is located in there with the beating I’m feeling, I want to eat the whole contents of a supermarket as I’m so hungry no matter what I eat. I hope to recover before I enroll at collage as I want that to be one of the happiest days I will remember. Mewh!

Have you got brains? Only one.. But have you got news?

I have to rant about The Hearld which one of my local newspapers which has a website with a RSS feed that is used in my Firefox toolbar. Quite recently the website has got filled with articles which is advertising certain events. Whilst this it fine in moderation, it would seem that this has taken over the website replacing most of the news which I would rather be reading. I wish they would just stick all the events on a new events page and stop cluttering the RSS feed with the junk. They don’t even label with something such as ‘Event:’in the feed title so I can avoid reading it.

GCSE Results *yay*

Recently I went to collect my GCSEs result from the school. I didn’t really hype myself up about it or thought about what grades I would be getting beforehand as I just thought it would be a dissapointment for myself if I failed my dreams.

It turned out I did quite well with 2 C’s, 2 D’s and the rest was E’s and F’s. I’m not that brothered about that happening as I only wanted to do English, Maths, Tech and Science in the first place. I think I would of done much better if I just did that. I managed to stay in mainstream education even though they wanted to take me out of it!

One thing which is a pain in the bum is that I got a D again after retaking the English. Life would of been lazier at collage if I got a C.. Dammit. Oh well.. I will just think of it of a great way of bonding more with the people in the group I be meeting in a fortnight time.

I had a great night at the local Hungry Horse.. that was good fun.

I’m insteding to have a bike ride to somewhere like the collage or if I manage to get some money.. the swimming pool. I must get on my bike today if I want to ride everyday in September or I won’t manage to build my fitness up. Must defeat my lazyiness.. Must defeat! If I do manage to ride my bike for rest of the month I will do around 78 miles. Quite amazing, huh?

Mainly out of boredom, I been really good as I cleaned up the house over the weekend. I did the bathroom, I cleaned my bedroom at last, I wiped some of the windows, and I’m about to clean the stairs. I’m just such a great person right? Not like I should be doing this anyway..

Its getting really boring for me not having any mates nearby my house or not having Laura about now. Living with my parents is depressing sometimes when you haven’t met with your mates for weeks, I would of gone to Stoke if it wasn’t with results day, drop in days  and enrolment day clashing with that idea. Why do I have to live in a street that is filled with old granny’s and young families?

I just have to appect that most my school pals are bastards for not keeping in touch with me throughout the weeks of time off. I would appreciate them not keeping in contact if they didn’t have my mobile number or if they didn’t have me added on social networking sites but most of them have me on both. I could of had some good times hanging about and going places but they chosen to ignore me completely, just because there in Didcot and I’m in Abingdon. Its not like there isn’t a bus idiots or that my Dad isn’t on sick leave for weeks.

Mewh – I know that I have met people that I get along with in collage so I’m not that pissed off but its just sad as it would of been fun and would of improved my time off in a great deal. Oh well..

I’m not that bothered by the results as I know I can go to collage either way with the two D’s I already recivied. It just means that it will take one more year if I don’t get three C’s which one has to be in English, and it would be nice to just do two years.

I sort of getting over Laura going up to Stoke as I have been used to before. It just I’ve never been so brain dead bored before. I really must get a of this house as much is humanly possible. Maybe I get into swimming again or walk the dog daily as which she should be having anyway.

I don’t know.. One thing I do know though is that the 3rd of Spetember is the most appealing and nerves jiggering day ever. My first day of collage I think.

I was only at Pets at Home as I was hanging at Jane’s and we had a trip in her Mini to go to this reptile store that is near my house. She had a long chat with this women in the store to get some advice and then she brought £90 worth of goodies for her turtle. Afterwards buying the things, the women recommended something that they don’t sell but is sold in Pets at Home. Hence looking at hamsters and falling in love with new named Jack.

I was well worried about looking after this chap as I’m finding it hard to relate to the thing as it was brought in a spare of a moment thing. I wasn’t expecting a hamster on that day. I will look after the hamster well though as I had a few hamster before.

Today I was well homesick and feeling sorry for myself as Laura went back to Stoke last night. I sent her a text this morning but I suppose she hasn’t reply back as I wouldn’t either if I was as busy as she currently is. I didn’t do much apart from nudging Jack throughout the day when it was awake. I also was building up use of my new daily contact lenses by wearing them for two hours.

Now, most people have a problem with getting them out and you would of thought it would been the same for me right? Seems not as I have great difficulty getting my eyes wide open enough to get contacts in. I can get contacts out quite quickly, I just wish I could get them in just as quick. By the time I got them in.. my eyes are sore from all the attempts.

I think I will have to wear the contact lenses for four hours tomorrow. As I only got a trial pack of five and currently got four left after wearing one pair today, I will have to dodge Sunday as I have to have some to wear for the Wednesday appointment.

My mum says that my contact lenses are bigger than the ones she wore when she had contacts. I suppose things would change as it been like 30 years since she last worn some.

Yes, photos from me are now happening again. Woot!

I suppose I had it lucky as a child as some people I know have parents that have divorced or something like their Dad dying though their childhood and I didn’t even have my parents arguing till last night. I knew something wasn’t right about my parent relationship though, I never seen them hugging much, holding hands or even gross.. kissing! This is what I lead to believe of what parents should be doing in movies such as Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging.

I was kind of fazed this morning as when I went downstairs, I thought that my parents would still be fallen out with each other but they was perfectly happy eating breakfast. Maybe its down to my mum night shift and my dad having a snooze. Yeah, I happy for it to be that way but I didn’t quite recover from feeling poop last night, so I was frustrated that it was just being ignored completely.

I’m feeling fine now, I’m just bored as I’m normally am. I can’t wait until I can move out of this place but I feel that my mum never wants to let me go. I also feel that she would go completely bonkers if I left her alone with my dad.

Oh wait, I forgot to mention that I went to Waitroses and Tescos looking for a job but they didn’t have anything suitable for me. I need temporary but everything temporary been taken up at June. I couldn’t of got a job in June as I went on holiday then.. Where is the free newspaper?

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My £95 course fee is same for either media course so if I do well in the GCSEs I can do the BND and if I do okay, I can do the First Dip. I feel that I have made the right choice doing Media at the collage as I felt that my school has left me down in many areas, and going into the sixth form would be stupid. Also the sixith form doesn’t have their own Media suite and can’t offer what the collage does.

Wikipedia freaked me out though as it used to mention that there is more students then media jobs, this has now got removed as there wasn’t a cite to prove this was true. Even if this was true, you could still make money from media from making a website such as Weebls Stuff. They made flash videos that people found funny and it showcased their skills. This meant that companies contacted them to pay them to create stuff for them. A recent example of this is the Cadbury’s Creme Egg Twisted.

One of the things I found amusing in the many documents of the pack is the risk assessment bit. It warns you of the activities you could be doing and what the risk are. I do take it seriously and agree with it but you have to be stupid to do some of the things it mentions like using dangerous props or walking onto train tracks. It not just a list of what you can’t do but advises you how to do things safely like with fires, that you should be over 10 metres away and have permission from the fire brigade.

I chucked the bus information out of the booklet as I will be doing either a 3 mile walk or cycle to the collage. I wish that they included more information about them two things as it would of been helpful. I’m happy with the concept of not catching a bus again as I will be saving loads.

Once I have enrolled, I would need to agree that I won’t take part of any computer related activity that could disgrace the college or make the collage open to legal action. This means that I will never mention the name of the college on here and try not to talk about the collage as much as possible.

I can’t wait until college starts.. I’m all excited!

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God Channel Europe:

Saturday 2nd August – 2pm to 6pm

God Channel USA:

Sunday 3rd August – 3pm to 7pm

I’m will posting often again once collage has kicked off in September. I haven’t done much that post worthy and I noticed the quailty of the blog going down recently. I rather have good posts than 100s of post which are damm boring and hardly make sense as being tried from posting loads.

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A couple of nights ago, I attended a house warming party at Law house (she is mates with everybody in this house) which was fancy dress which was Old people. I went for the old women look as they thought it would be funny for me to do drag. I went along with the idea and it was a real laugh. During the night, somebody called Charlie wanted me to buy her some more Budweiser when I going with some other people going to the corner shop. I somehow managed to buy them. I think it got something about being in the north and knowing the person in the shop.

The past couple of days I been walking around Stoke as my sister sold her broken down car awhile back, and we couldn’t find a lift. The walk I remember the most is when we went to get some food shopping for me as I’m a picky bugger with food. My sister claimed it was a easy not very far walk to Tescos.. Oh how she was wrong! It was blazing hot and it had steep hills during the walk. All was forgiven when we found a fiver on the floor and brought Roxy some cat goodies with it at Pets at home.

The last walk I did was to Hanley which wasn’t bad as we cheat on the way there and caught the bus as we brought some heavy bags with us for some charity shops. Whilst we was there, I treated myself with an Chicken Burger at Weatherspoons. Oh how I enjoy eating at Weatherspoons. I’m quite simple really to have fun.

I’ve upgraded my phone to the O2 XDA Orbit 2 and it just doesn’t suit me. I really miss my old phone very much and I miss it even more when I see other people using the same phone I had. I regret letting that phone get water damage. *sigh*

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In the late evening, I am going with my mum to pick up my 21 year old sister which is up at Stoke to bring her down to go with us for the holiday from this Friday. I have no idea why its been planned to be up there at midnight. I think it might of been because my mum going to most awake at that time due to her night shifts.

So yeah.. I’m going to be tried on Thursday. I’m such a great brother as I booked a hair appointment for my sister as it was bugging me that her hair was getting so dam messy.

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My ICT teacher has really pissed me off as I was wanting to know what I needed to do to finish my folder off weeks before school finished and I even asked him for a check list but he couldn’t be bothered to find out for me. So that have meant that I had to go into school on a day couple of weeks ago which was a day without exams. You would think that would be the last of this nightmare. Well I was wrong thinking that it was all done, when I had a call from him yesterday saying that I haven’t done the Record of Evidence. I couldn’t give a dam really as it only him with a problem if ASDAN looks at my folder and sees that I don’t have it. It only that he wants me to cover up the fact that nearly all everybody haven’t done the blinking coursework and wants to hide this fact by showing them selected folders of the few which have. I don’t give a hoot about anything ASDAN related as my collage doesn’t take it. I be more bothered if this was GCSE ICT which I wanted to do in the first place…

My bedroom feels much more higher up from the ground every day as I can’t be arsed to tidy it. It’s dangerous as I nearly fell over getting out of the bedroom today meaning that I will probably tidy that up tomorrow. I nearly chucked up yesterday as I was cleaning my kitchen up when I found a seal food tub. I couldn’t work out what was inside it, so I badly decided to open the thing up when suddenly this green mist of dust came flying out and where I discovered this really gone off piece of bread in the middle of the tub. It was really rank! On the subject of tidying, I really hate it how my parents just dump all the tidying and washing on me.. I wish that other people in the house would help me.
I’m excited that I’m planning to do some video blogging soon. The main problem is that I want to have a room that I won’t be embarrassed to show everybody on places like YouTube so I will either have to shove lots of posters on my wall or something as I’m half way of repainting the bit under my window ledge but I never got to finish doing it.

What a day today has been.. Really strange and mad could be one way of to describe it. I had people crowding around me pressing their pens against me to sign my shirt and people decorating me neck and face. I had quite alot of different of designs on my face as I kept washing the ink off not to mark the skin. This went so well until I forgot about the last time they drawn on me and I left the ink on my face and neck.

When I arrived home, I thought it would wash off easily but after hundreds of attempts it really didn’t. So I decided I look search how to wash it off on google. The main things mentioned to wash permanent ink off was toothpaste, nail remover and alcohol.

First of all I decided to try dabbing nail polish remover over my neck. So I basically poured half a bottle of the stuff on bog roll then onto my neck. It stung like anything and my neck started looking and feeling like you got sun burn. It really wasn’t a good idea at all. Also the smell of the stuff was making my eyes water and I started coughing. I was on the floor with pain. It did sorta work though but it didn’t remove it all off my neck. (Edit: Do not try this at home.. my neck is still red and its months after i written this post)

Next thing, alcohol, or to be more approx.. Cider!! It didn’t really had any effect apart from making my neck sticky, making me smell like a alcoholic, and making me sad after I wasted half a can. So I moved on to toothpaste.

I had no idea why toothpaste would do anything but I wasn’t going to question it. I dashed to the bathroom and started squeezing the tube all over my neck and rubbing it in like sun cream. All I archived with this is that my neck started stinging again and I smelt like a obsessed teeth cleaner.

So yeah, thats the last time I’m trusting Google!

My wallet is going to upset with me. I’ve been draining the amount of money I have by going to places like theme parks which seem like monthly. I think that I fund the munchbox at my school as I buy something from it daily. I was upset that they have given up with the microwave garlic bread idea as I really liked them.

I had a mega happiness boost from going to Ultimate Events over the weekend, which I will blog about once I can be brothered. I didn’t get to go on many rides though due to the mad road traffic and busyness of the park. I really enjoyed myself though talking to people and dancing madly in the concert. This will embarrass me if they ever show the shots of me on God Tv. I never watched God tv.

I just noticed that its midnight. Must go to sleep.. Sleeping (well more like lying at..) at David house has really messed with my body clock. I’m sure it will sort itself out soon enough!

Today was rather nice with the weather although I managed to get sunburn on my neck. Yeah – thats one of the downfalls of being ginger is that you burn easily. Anyways – because of the weather, everybody was on the field playing football. I couldn’t be brothered so I just stood and stared.

On second lunch, they wanted to play this game which they played yesterday which is called Bulldog. The game works is that one person in the group is IT and calls out ‘Bulldog!’ while everybody else runs to the other side trying not to be caught by IT. I only played this game one as you look like a idot running back and forth, nobody decided to tackle me, and adding on to the last point.. it is one stupid painful game which results with people clothing getting ripped. It also a excuse for my mates  vertically hump  each other on the ground and feel each other up without any after thoughts. While I don’t mind what their sexuality is, I just feel uncomfortable when they are doing this!

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Yes it is true. I am attending the Ultimate Events which is in Alton Towers which is located in Staffordshire. For people who do not what Ultimate Events is, its a massive event hosted by Milton Keynes Christian Centre which unites people together with thrills in the theme park and great music in a concert that starts just when the theme park closes.

Now I am not a Christian and only known about the event cause I been invited by a friend called David (who has also invited some other people I know). I still think it will be a great day even though the whole day will be packed with hundreds of people. I quite like some of the bands that are in the concert which is always good.

Just until a couple of days ago, I didn’t have any idea about the plans but thankfully I got emailed them. I think David was in a rush to write them as their is some mistakes but it is still readable. I quite like how he included maps to make it easier to locate places. As I’m going to arrive back in Wallingford late, I’m gonna be sleeping at Davids which will be different. I heard I will be sleeping in tent.. I hope it doesn’t rain!!!

I only have around two weeks left of school now then I leaving the place. I can’t wait to move to the next stage of my life which is scary yet exciting at the same time if you know what I mean. I feel that the school has me down with some parts of my education with especially Maths (lots of different teachers and lack of teaching) and Geography (Mr Ford teaching one thing not forcing on the stuff he was meant to be teaching.)

I sort of snapped last night with my parents, (I don’t mean I suddenly starting hating them or started fighting) as they started blaming problems in the household on me. Like I tried to help my mum with the her phone, and they blame all the problems with it on me which I feel is unfair. Now on I’m going to let them sort their own problems out and not get so involved.

I have given up with relationships at the moment. I still need time to recover from the last person using me. He like hold my hands, hug and stuff then ignore anything that happened after the day is over. I think there was a love triangle was going on as well, as he still is really close with one of his mates. This is probs a good idea to not focus on relationship as there is GCSEs coming very soon.

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I recently went to London with the school to see ‘The Women In Black‘. I decided to get changed in the leisure centre and met my mum to eat pizza before 4:20 when I was due to get picked up at the front of the school. Everybody dashed into the bus when the brightly coloured orange Tappins coach arrived. I wasn’t sure who I was going to sit with as my mates already was sat together on the bus so I sat next to this quiet person called Ben.

It was rather busy on the motorway due to roadworks and stuff so I was glad when we reached the bus lanes near and inside London. I still have no idea what a low emission zone is, but there was lots of signs around London saying that area was that.

As the play started at 8pm, everybody walked to Covent Garden to look around the place. It would of seemed that everybody in my group of mates looked to me as the leader which was strange as I had no idea. We wondered to HMV (which was pointless) as they wanted to look at the metal part. *sigh* I did amused myself by finding the rude album covers.

When we got to the theatre, we nearly had the dress circle to ourself apart from a few couples dotted around it. The seating was really cramped so you had to sit on it weirdly as you had no leg room. I found that the first half of the show as a warm up.

During the short break I had a £2.50 choc and mint ice cream which was kindly brought by Harry. I was still eating it whilst the second half of the show started. This part was the main bit and I wouldn’t say it was scary but very jumpy. They just basically just played loud noises when you wernt expecting it! I found some of the show quite funny especially the women in black mask.

The way back was really boring, everybody (including me) was really tried due to the time of day and to be kind I won’t mention who, but somebody got travel sick! The route the Tappins driver used was unnecessarily too long and had lots a traffic.

Got back at round 1am in the morning.

I’ve just been looking some of the post in the archive. I wouldn’t recommend this to anybody as half the posts don’t make any sense of all, as I wrote them when I was around just 15 years old. I’m so embarrassed by them. I’m debating weather to go though them and delete the really bad ones..

Today I went into Abingdon mainly to pick up some dry cleaning and to have lunch at a cafe which is near that old fashioned looking shop called Masons or something like that. I’m a picky eater and therefore didn’t like half of the things on the menu. Its so embrassing being like that. I would go on Freaky Eaters if they got in contact with me.

I’m sorry about the lack of images that are taken by me. This is because of problems with new version of the backend which powers this blog. In the meanwhile while I’m finding a fix for it, you will have to put up with Wikipedia photos.

I suppose I start on talking about going to ‘Get ready for work!’ day in Wantage on Thursday. I didn’t benefit from the day at all as most of it was about common sense (ie lying is bad on a application form) or the stuff about body language was taught to me when I did the M.A.G.I.C course, which involved a trip out eating pizza and skating. The other thing annoyed me about the trip was that I missed out getting a lot of important GSCE Art stuff at school which I didn’t realised was getting handed out that day.

I despise call centres which isn’t based in England as it seems that nobody understands each other. I called Talktalk to try and get the phone number I think they nicked from us to BT and they just disconnected the landline. The other thing I loathe is calling up BT which I has been doing the past of couple of days. I been trying to get the broadband they think is working work in real life. After 2 weeks of getting looped around the different departments, I’ve ordered it again!

For some reason, somebody left a Metro on one of bus seats on bus one day. I was bored as the bus didn’t yet reached the bus stop where my mates catch the bus, so I started reading it. I glad I did as I discovered that Dr Fox was in it. So yeah, I will be passing that article over to him as he hasn’t yet seen it!

I don’t think that Myles will be that happy with me when I get back to school. The reason why is that I decided to volunteer to prefect a door in the Main Entrance and wondered off mid break after decided that it was boring.

I got fed up with my hair yesterday and managed to get a haircut for this morning. The amount of hair that went on the floor was amazing. I back to being spiky again which is a good, though its bad that I lost my £10 bet with a mate that I could have long hair.

I thought I post some advice that learnt all by myself. If you drink alcohol you gonna feel rather crap the day after if you don’t drink lots of water once you get from the pub or gig. I wish I knew this afew days ago as I had such a mega sore throat and I felt so thirsty and faint as I woke up. Also be careful who you are near when you are drunk or you could be blabbing out stuff that wasn’t meant to be told. I’ve done that..

I had such a good night yesterday. I’m still recovering from it all.. I met some old friends that I haven’t seen in years (and thought I would never seen again) in Oxford as I got mailed on Bebo about this gathering that was happening and thought why not go to it? It was alright but I haven’t got any money now until January..

For some strange reason I felt reading Russell Brand’s book afew weeks ago and put it above where my bed is on this small metal shelf. This was such a good idea until the book fell off and effectively whacked my nose really hard that my nose started bleeding mildly. I didn’t think much of this until this morning when I blew my nose to find it started bleeding very badly with pints of blood coming out of it. Bloody Russell Brand and his heavy books! The tissue is still soaking wet with my very own blood.

2007 is nearly ending and what a eventful year its been for me.

It started off with some snow fun and having great time in TGI Fridays. Apart from them two things I didn’t really do much that was exciting at the start of the year and the blog had its first ever Hiatus.

The next eventful thing that happened to me was going to my first ever gig which happened to be Keane. At school I got my first ever DT which was at the PE block. I took a photo of me wearing a red nose (now password protected) with the Walkers ears.. I later regret doing this as I uploaded it here which then meant other people saved it on their computers. The cold weather were damaging the cars at my house and caused problems for me.

In March, I was the first person to use a Key on my bus (not official but true ), everybody around the school had red hair but I didn’t as I had a brain to know the school wouldn’t like it and Virgin Trains didn’t cock the trip to Stoke at least.

In April, I nearly got sued for saying how crap a local band was. I decided that I didn’t get on well with the people I hanged around at the time (I didn’t like the bitching and the judging they did) and made a big choice. I buggered off and accepted the invite by Tom Loader and hanged around with his mates. My friendship with Tom Loader probably wouldn’t never of happened if Miss Buchanan didn’t force me to sit with him at form time.

‘I used to felt that I’m generally the one that now stand there in a group of ‘friends’ and has nothing to say that could relate to the conversation… I’d try and join in abit I felt a fool and small/silly for sayin’ something cuz I thought that it just didn’t fit in. Sometimes I used to just wanna sit in the corner and hide. I don’t feel like that any more with my new group of friends, yes I call them friends, and I’m talking and laughing all the time.’

In May, I was forced to talked about my dislike of some foods (I was a tiny bit mad) and ended up talking bananas. I was struggling with the coursework given to me, and wasn’t handling this in a really good way. I was basicly sorting my life out in this month. I changed drastically and felt more happy by the end of this month.

The same sorta thing was happening for afew months. There isn’t much worth mentioning till it gets to June. It was the month that my first ever own computer died. I started getting my arsed into gear in PE and started taking part in PE. In Science, I decided to ignore some good advice and exploded a glass tube which had a rather loud noise. I went to The Feeling gig also.

At July, some major events happened that effected everyone. I went to London when they found bombs and Abingdon flooded which meant I stayed in Stoke for awhile.

August nothing much happened apart my mum handbag got nicked and I went to a folk festival in
Cropredy. September is pretty much with the same as in not being eventful apart from Lulworth Cove.

In October, I was invited to the school on the first day of the half term holidays to do some English revision. I sided on some ice and injured myself, and saw the work happening on the school grounds.

In November, my age increased as I had a birthday and I discovered a thing called a razor. It didn’t shred my skin..

And now we have reached this month. December.. Well apart from seeing loads of movies at Cineworld and going into Oxfords lots.. I haven’t done much this month. I wonder what 2008 will turn out like?

Christmas is so soon and I so want it to come now. I’ve never remembered having a really brilliant time on the Christmas holidays but maybe this year will be different? I never remembered liking school but since Yr10 & more so with Yr11 I been loving it.

One of my form tutors said to me a year ago that I should be honest to everybody and you feel so much better. How right she was. I feel so much better not making up stupid lies to people and digging a hole for myself. I never lie these days as my life works so much better.

I really sorry I’m not giving out Christmas cards this year. I just believe its an waste of card / wood as its going to be chucked out in a couple of weeks time, and a waste of my money. I rather buy a hot drink so I don’t freeze at the bus stop. I’ll send you a e-card if you want me to.

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On Friday, a dodgy driven VW car got followed by the police from Oxford, when it arrived into Didcot. This is when the man got out of the car with a gun and ran off. The police never see him since.. When I left the school on that day, I thought it would be like a Action movie outside as I was watching one in the classroom when the school went into lockdown.

I thought I would hearing someone shouting ‘Duck!’ running fast with everything be hide you exploding as you dive down, but that didn’t really happen. All that really happened is that there was lots of police with yellow jackets on the streets.

The only exciting thing was the stupid and unbelievable rumours like a few of the coppers getting killed or that the girls at DGS that was evacuated ‘told to go to their homes’, were going to their boyfriends entering the area that was meant to be closed!

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After the open day at my local college and looking around was really exciting. I just hope I can get a place there as it looks soo good find. I went in and stumbled into subjects I thought looked good, they (the people at the subjects stand) was quite helpful at answering my questions. Right now, I’m looking at the application form, slowly filling it in. I must remember to call them to get a interview for this thingy bob.

Today I just been bored out of my head. I should of been doing all sorts of things like adding studies to my Art book or doing some revision, but I took along time waking up so I was quite lazy and grumpy. I just ended up watching Snooker only understanding a tiny bit of what was going on. I only brothered to watch it as my mate Dan really into the sport.

I really need to remove the food which is mouldy and been left on my table for weeks if not months. Well what do you expect from me? To keep my room clean and tidy.. Okay then. No seriously I think I’m getting ill from the stuff.

Did anybody do any revision when they were suppose to? I know I didn’t. I rather go around a mate house or discover parts of Didcot that I haven’t been to (or mix them two things together).

I went past this fab graffiti bridge on the way to one of my mates house. I had to go back to this bridge at a later point as I wanted to take photos as I loved the graffiti and some of the stuff written on the wall. For example ‘ <— Sorry No view We alpolise for this inconvenience : 0′.

Update (3rd December): I have more breathing space to get Art stuff done as the mock Art exam has been moved due to it clashing with a real exam.

I went into Oxford today for two main reasons.. I needed to make sure my key (a smartcard for the bus) won’t be blacklisted by giving the bus company the stamped form to prove I’m still at school, and get some t-shirts as I couldn’t find any in my clothing collection (I wonder where the black hole is..).

I dragged my one of my parents with me as I couldn’t stand catching the bus due to how busy it will be today. She decided that going there early would be a good idea to get a space easily in teh Westgate car park. On the way to the shops, I noticed the strange coffee shop was selling coats, so I went in trying on this orange coat liking it, so brought it. So yeah, on Monday I will it wearing that if its cold!

After getting my key sorted, I popped into Primark looking at their t-shirts and went out with sixteen pound worth of t-shirts I brought. A good tip is when you go to car parks where you get a ticket card, set a timer for hour and a half on your phone to avoid the car park stupid prices.

I will need to check the timetable for the bus now due to mock exams timetable I’m on this week. Bye Yippie Yo’!

School went better than I thought it would go, but it went quite slow as I was quite slient as I didn’t much to mention to anybody. I was as smug as anything stopping people into the block whilst prefecting, though it backfired when walking to the bus as one the person I blocked tried ramming me with his bike, but some of his mates distracted him and I dashed.
The bus seems to be really late these days. I cannot really argue with them as it isn’t there fault what the traffic does. It does annoy me though as I wanted to be at home to look at teh post. My smartcard seems to playing up recently, so a call to the company is needed.

Will I bother to revise.. Might do some SAM Learning.

Like the title suggests.. Its is my 16th birthday today. Woo-hay! There was only two people which gave me gigs today but I am not gonna be harsh and name them. Everyone else wern’t even brothered that it was my birthday which I was guessing would happen.

I’m the sort of person that likes afew cards and the occassional choolate and gift card. I don’t want to make a fuss with presents and there isn’t anything that I want. I’m pretty much happy with what I have got already.

Tonight I wondered off to a local pub. I ordered a chicken burger and some unwanted cruly fries. Cruly fries suck! I wish they didn’t bother making them cruly as it means I have to tear themup to make them how I like them, then I have grease all over my hands. Oh the bother.

The spelling is going to suck on this post as I’m been drinking the Strongbow and typing on a crappy downstairs computer as the wireless has broke again. I hate TalkTalk and their crappy router and broadbrand. Sometimes I think a modem would be faster..

Anyways.. I’m going to have the joys of going to bed at a stupid time then oversleeping tomorrow. Ta! ( Sorry.. I just got used of saying that so I’m not going to stop it now!)

I just finished watching Britz, which I thought was great though I felt the last part dragged on abit at towards the end. It changed my one sided view on the London bombings and makes understand their reason of doing it.

Recently I have decided that I give it a go to do the exam with everyone else instead of going to sixith form room. I hope it doesn’t muck up my results due to being in a different enviroment. I cannot back out of the idea at the moment as the paper work has been filled in though I can after the English ones are over.

Thinking about Monday, wasn’t that year photo really stupid. They took too long putting everyone in height order and once we was on the stage metal thing, they was taking too long moaning about uniforms. My leg was really acking by the end of it and the waiting trigged silly behaviour to mainly the chavs. I was quite glad when that was over.

I’m been getting strange looks these days.. Why can’t I skip around my neighbourhood? (I don’t.. I’d made that up.. oh wait there is a photo.. Hmm) No, the reason I been getting strange looks is because I got a different Prefect badge that I found on the internet. It seems to be foucs point when a chav is trying to shove their way into the block I’m in.

Afew people in my set is trying very hard to get Miss Broadhurst sacked. I hope she doesn’t though as she been a great teacher that have taught me since joining the school. I know that she is different than what she used to be, but so be it. The change is alright by me.

God.. acouple of days of not blogging and I produce a post this long. Yikes!

As I walked in to the gate, nearby kids on the paths gave me a strange look. I walked up to to the room finding it was locked so I wondered around the school. First thing I found out that they were taking the stage apart in the hall, and possibly about to start to start sanding the wooden floor. Exciting..

It wasn’t long until the teachers arrived and the rest of the people attending this thing. I had 15 mins breaks and a one hour lunch break. On one of the breaks I wondered with Jack and Matty to see what happening around the school. We discovered first that they are ripping some of the tarmac up outside the tatty huts (possbily ripping the whole playground up).

On the lunch break, it would seem that we would be heading to the chip shop. It seemed like a good idea for me to run around the corder but it ended out with some of my flesh being ripped off on my arm. The day passed quite fast after that, and I now staring at the Cineworld voucher in front of me.

Tomorrow I shall be heading in the Banbury direction to go shoe shopping.. how exciting!

I had the most fantastic term ever.. I don’t know what made it difference from any other term but I enjoyed it a lot more. My football skills are improving though I wouldn’t say I am best player ever, also the English coursework grade was better than I expected it to be (a C though I was a few marks away for a B).

I am quite busy this week, I’m doing that English revision thing on Monday, Tuesday I’m tidying my room (to remove 5ft mess ), Wednesday – Saturday I’m up at Stoke.

I’m off to catch up on TV though ‘on demand’ services. Ta!

Now, my birthday is coming up soon and I remembered about lying that, so I stupidly decided to be honest to Facebook. I sent a email off to correct the year out and five mins later, I find out that my account has been deactivated by Reece. I’m never going to be honest if that happens.

I feel like a complete idiot now, pointing that out to Facebook. *sigh*

Edit: It would seem the admins at Facebook seem to have a urge at the moment to disable accounts unfairly. For example, someone was getting harassed and they reported it. instead of the harasser getting disabled, they disable the person who reported it. Plain stupid.

I arrived at the school just before 8am deadline as I didn’t want hang around in the hall for along time. The coach was there already and everyone bundled into a smelly orange version of one. On the way, I had to keep myself from laughing out loud at the driver managing to get stuck every five ticks.

We arrived at the Cove at 11ish, and went straight into a cramped classroom (with small chairs like I was in primary school) to stare at a presentation on how amazing rocks are and information about them, which I knew already. The group then spilt to two groups, I was in Mr Ford group (as i’m in his class )..

After looking at different types of rock, the group did a random sketch of a cove on the bottom of the hill. We wondered about and did even more sketching of things nearby. Thankfully after that, it was lunchtime!

I joined the dash to the chip shop and after queuing I ordered large chips, and I ate them. Amazing.. It wasn’t long until it was 1 o’clock and we had to meet up again at a spot but it took along time to do it though.

We now had to climb this really steep hill (with out anything to hold on to) and I applied a rule while walking up it. Don’t stop unless the leader does.. I was pretty impress by being in front most of the time. I got on top and was really tried. Took a break and looked at the great views high above.

We then went down the hill at the other side but it was giving me belly ache as it really shook you up and down. The rest of trip involves looking at other processes of coves and climbing up the hill again and going down it going to the starting point.

The trip back was aright but was quite boring. I got back at five o’clock and went home.

There is more photos of the trip in my photo album on Bebo and soon on Facebook.

The school decided to change the heating system in the main block which means the place was cold. Sadly most of my lessons where in there today so I was a block of ice by the end of the day.

I talked to Sam on messenger afew moments ago to see how the trip to Lulworth Cove was like and now I wish I didn’t as it turns out the trip wasn’t worth the journey and the fifteen quid paid to go. I’m going tomorrow and I will be having to climb up steep hills. Great. The only good thing I’d heard is that there is a place you can buy hot drinks from.

The bus driver seems to get more grumpy by the day. I am not surprised though as them annoying girls could get anyone grumpy. I know some girls are bitchy and lound but these girls are beyond bitchy, I never met such antisocial group of girls before. They love screaming and lap dancing on strangers. I wish they would get banned from the bus.

Anyway.. I should be updating again. I took a break from updating to make sure it isn’t even more boring than it currently is.

Well, so far at least, the beginning of Yr11 has only been good as I’ve got a fresh start again and I’m using it well. I’ve finally got myself sorted out for once! Other people have noticed how much more calmer I am now than I’ve ever was. I’m also Mr Social this year, as I hit me during the summer holidays how too quiet I was, I am not Mr Loudmouth though so don’t worry.

I just got in touch with Tom Loader, he seems to be having a smashing time. I noticed he posted a photo of some aright special effects make up on his arm. I think collage suits him better than a school does.

The next day came quickly enough, Friday. As I woke up I was in panic as it was 10:15am, and I needed to get my Mum to bring me to doctors asap or otherwise I would be taking Monday off as well. I got there a couple of ticks before the deadline, and sat down to wait. A hour and a half later on crappy painful seat, I saw the doctor and started to tell her what happened and described what she wanted to know. She said she could give me some tablets to stop pain when it happens.

My mum needed to go to work when I got out of the place, so she dropped me off at the house, and I managed to get my sister bring me to Tescos to get my tablets. When we got there, they said that they had a shortage of that drug and we should go elsewhere. Boots was the place that I managed to get the tablets. As it was lunchtime, I got some lunch and wondered back to the car.

Anyway, two days of unwanted time off when I could been at place I wanted to be at.. school. God, its strange to say that.

It was mine choice to pick a movie and apart from horror movies, only Knocked Up was showing then, so I had a easy choice of Knocked Up or Knocked Up as my sister mate didn’t want to see horror movies.

As soon the movie started, I was wanting to leave. My god, that movie felt like I was in there for a whole day and a half. Also, I didn’t feel like much of a good story lines to it, there was just one crappy story line that wasn’t good.

I do have to say, if produced the film like the last bit of it, it would of been great. Overall rating of film is a 1.5 (the 1 is because of the last bit) of 10

My sister said she wouldn’t mind coming with me, so I got a lift to the car park for the park and ride. I was abit annoyed when I noticed the park got rasied from 50p to a pound.

We had to dash to get to the bus before it set off. I got in to Oxford around late morning. The first task was get a watch. We looked around clothes shops like Next (too boring watches), Topman (didn’t have any), Gap (yet again, they sell none), then I went into River Island. I saw a watch I wanted there and brought it for about £20. I gave my sister the money in hope she could give me a NUS discount.. They don’t do it, oh well.

We then decided to have look at the shops around which was places like HMV, Virgin, Lush (I love the smells in there, OK?), and Gamestation. That was good though I wasn’t feeling that awake after all the stairs I decided to climb.

Food.. I was feeling hungry. KFC, Burger King, or umm Pizza Hut? I picked Pizza Hut. God it was greasy.. I felt even more sick afterwards. That ment I wanted to get out of the place.

Oh the way to the bus stop I noticed Shakeaway.. I went in and order my usual ‘Chocolate’. Back going to the bus stop. We had to run again to get it.

Halfway getting to the car park, the driver went into the side of a car. It made a loud noise, and after the driver chatted the car owner, he went on.

I’m going Cineworld this evening and I cannot decide to watch Knocked up or No Reservations. Argghh!

To be honest, I am hating living in Abingdon at the moment. As a teenager, there isn’t much to do in the area, there places nearby that you can go but you need a lift to get there. If my parents didn’t have cars, my life would of been much different. I don’t know how people cannot live without cars really.

I would mention where my family is dreaming to go to but as it just a dream currently there isn’t any point yet making a list. We have been looking at houses details though.

You may be wondering why I’m posting at 2am in the morning.. well, I’m feeling ill and I took some tablets but it would seem the side affects is keeping you awake whilst not making you tried. It sucks!

The end of the holidays is near and well I’m ready for it. I cannot wait to get this new school year over then moving to ideally the collage nearby to have more of a social life than I currently have.

I went in to Oxford for awhile just to think about stuff and take a break being stuck in Abingdon. I wish I went to Shakeaway though, as I missed going there as I rushed for the bus. Dam these buses coming ideally.

My provisional GCSE for Science came though the post a few days ago, the grade is crap as it dated June 2007 when I did the tests I missed out after that date so I won’t believe that score too much. I liked the heat spot in the corner that turns to white when get warm. I sadly broke my heat spot due playing with it too much.

I went to Cineworld and bumped into Nathan (?) from school. I wish I spoke / hangaround with him abit longer but I was in a rush for the loo. I was there to watch Transformers which was as good as the hype made it to be. I really should get the form to get a thingy bob card.

I’ve been on Facebook for a week now and I still haven’t been poked. I wish I could attended Heather (one of my sister mates in the place she lives) birthday climbing outdoor activity thing in Stoke but I couldn’t get it planned to get up there in time.

Life so dull for me at the moment as there is nothing exciting to do. All my friends are either in Didcot and Keele meaning either of them needs a ticket of some kind to get there. *sigh*

I’m gonna go to Cropredy tomorrow to go camping at the folk festival. My plans are is to arrive there tomorrow and settle in then on Saturday go inside the main bit. This is my first time attending the festival and hope it going to be great! Well it been in the local media both on ITV and BBC, I think the reporters just wanted to get in for free..

I’m going to Reading tomorrow as I want to go to teh manga store and get some well wanted Naruto as I’m fed up with current manga I got. Well was it expected to be crap the price I’d paid for it. *sigh*

I hate getting blinkin sunburn, I look paper white in the crowd at the moment. Curse the ginger gene..

My computer doesn’t like Skype, and doesn’t support the BBC VoD that I’ve been invited to.

The only main highlight of yesterday is that I did a few laps at the Swimming Pool nearby. I’m trying to get my body fit by changing my crappy diet and doing some sport everyday.

I will need to shave soon. My first ever shaving session, how fun.. It will probably end up cutting myself badly, and having a everlasting scar.

They got a Wii over here that I love playing with.. My hand hurts though as I stood to near to the door! I am getting good at the tennis and the ten-pin bowling though.

The photos I decided to take are getting viewed alot, I wonder if they will be nicked by some sort of newspaper? Along they pay me.. or the charity fund to help the victims out!

I’m so gonna find some manga at the Hanley comic shop that I love going into, they normally sell them cheaply.

Isn’t this weather really depressing and well.. shite? I hope the Abingdon roads don’t get flooded like last year, as I’m at Harwell at the moment. Good luck to every one in the flood watch area that is near the Ock or the Thames, luckly I’m not IN the area but IN the middle of them both.. So basicly my house won’t get flooded but the roads around it could.

I’ve got Debbie a lovely thank you gift to say goodbye with. I left it in my Dads car though so I have to wait until lunchtime till I can hand it over. My two weeks has been alright though it wasn’t that exciting, as for example I had to go around the workplace that the network isn’t working. I think they can work that out for themselfs!

Anyway I hope every reader has a lovely soaking good holiday. Some of you luckly gits are going on holiday that isn’t in England.

Merging from: Nightmares hits Oxfordshire with heavy rain causing flooding!

Whilst checking the emails when I was at my last day at Harwell, I seen a message saying that there is really bad flooding nearby and that everyone should go asap. Flooding was a understatement, as the roads looks like rivers at some places on the way back.

Car recovery trucks was seen going down the road we planned to go down so we had to plan another route, as we are locals, we know that road floods easily and that it will be more terrible than going ahead.

I was begainning to be really scared and trapped. I felt like I wasn’t going to be able to get home and that the water was studdenly rise quickly. Neither of that happened thankfully. The rest of the route was nearly always in 2ichs of water and I still don’t know how the car didn’t brakedown.

I’m still feeling shaken from it all. There is people that is a worse place than I was, like having their house soaked or having their car broken nowhere near to their homes.

I am excitied today, my sister coming back for acouple of days. I really value how good she been we me acting stuipd sometimes, and she is more as a buddy than a sister. So sometime in the evening I will be in Oxford waiting for her train.

I had a great talk with IT group leader, senior website designer, and manager of Momenta (the manager is called Debbie, and is my dads boss) about their IT and stuff about how good AEA. At the end of it I felt that working at AEA is a possible idea for a job. It was really nice of Debbie to give me Good Luck card.

I’m loving social networking at the moment as its so great talking to people like old friends that have left school. There has a been a boost on people taking my quizes this week due to everyone being bored at work ex.

I enjoyed watching Harry Potter yesterday and I noticed Antony G and Ross from school. The film was alright though I thought the ending sucked abit and it felt like a standalone film.

Only one week until the summer holidays are here. I’m not doing much in them but it much more better than work experience!

The next Harry Potter film is out and I’m seeing it this weekend at Didcot. I really looking forward to see how this film differs from the other ones and if it lives up to the film reviews. But from hearing from people, they have cramped lots in this film.

I’m watching Big Brother right now for a change. I have started watching it again as it has been put back to life with the the ‘fake week’. I think Charley might be the best to go out and in again.

Just checked Bebo and seen that Ardjan (a old friend of mine that left the school I am at) have left a comment. I really like social websites because otherwize I would lost contact with people like him. If only Facebook allowed me to sign up without lieing..

I then used a program called ‘Wink’ to create a help thingy, that all I done today really..

I will not be allowed in the buliding again as there is some silly rule meaning I can’t, so I’m in the newest buliding called Gemini tomorrow. Anyway, I gotta go as its 5pm.

If I’m not at school tomorrow, I will be in on Friday which is Tom Loaders last day which I wouldn’t miss ever. Shirt signing is always fun thing to do.

Anyway, sitting on a cheap computer seat is always the best thing to do with a bad back. Back to bed – Back to comfortability!  :razz:

finaly – the write up from the london trip when there was bombs in the place.

I woke up rather early this morning to get dropped off with my sister to the bus depot in Oxford. On the way there, my mum started listening to BBC Radio Oxford when I heard, a packet bomb found in London. As I heard this I began to want to back out of the trip out. A few seconds after hearing that, it turned out that they were talking about a car bomb and it wasn’t in the tube as I thought. This made me relax a little bit but still in panic of the idea of joining what I thought as a ‘dangerous’ area. The day before, my sister brought tickets for the OxfordTube and they wasn’t refundable, so my sister wasn’t going to back out of the idea on going to London so I kinda forced to go in. So I got dropped off at the bus depot in Oxford and the bus was ready there, so we just hopped in.

My nerves began to smooth away, the further I was nearing London. After a few bus stops, we got off the bus to go in the tube. Getting a one day travel pass looked like the best thing around, so we got that. The first place we used the tube for was going to this techo street I heard about. Once I arrived there, we was feeling rather hungry and the smell of the Subway was too tempting. After looking around a few shops, it started raining, so we dashed to the tube for cover and ended looking around the street a tiny bit early.

Next place, Modern Design place. I went to the tube, got off at the correct place, then after crossing the tower bridge and walking around this posh area, we reached the good looking place. Pictures from this place will be on the Flickr soon.

[Part two coming up tomorrow]

My mom and my sister went into Oxford and fetched me a Shakeaway and some great clothes for work ex.

Are you doing anything tomorrow?, you may ask me. Well if you did ask that question I would tell you that I am going into London by the Oxfordtube bus then transporting around London by the Tube. What are intend to do in there?, may be asked by you after saying the first question. I would bang my head on a wall then say its because its unplanned.

After this ‘backpost’, I will be posting as normal. Daily on the same day as the events happened.. Lovely.

Today I had my glasses damaged and a strange dizzyness because of the mistake in PE of the idea of playing football with Frank around. lol

He didn’t mean to but he managed whack the ball in my face and the force managed to make my glasses have wings and make my face sting.

I’m sick of Tom talking about how he thinks that Mr dean is homophobic, just because he was joking with him. For god shake, everyone would of forgotten about it if you didn’t make a big point about it. Its very unusual for me to use people at school names!

After that I had Maths in the room with the magical desks that have a computer fly out from them. I then had Mr Dean doing lots of Science.. He said a joke that was very light hearted but Tom didn’t think so taking much offence.

I’m packing for tomorrow trip to Stoke. I ever so excited about this gig and meeting my sister again. The weather is looking to be rainy though I hope that the thunder won’t stop the gig. I would be a tiny bit gutted if that happens. I won’t be in school because it would be pointless, as I wouldn’t be in for along time if I did.

Prefecting was fun today as we had a world record of one person trying to get in. Seans bag was binned, Adams hidden and lots of running around the block annoying the teachers in the process.

Anyway, I don’t know why I’m wasting time updating this as I got loads of homework/coursework to do!

School was rather amusing today. I brought the newspaper article (that is shown below) in to school and now the head got it after Mrs Carter made copies of it. There is now a another gap in my form room tables, (or is that was) so you don’t have to slide over the table. The teachers are annoyed that I have blocked this site at school. I think they read it like it is a heat mag or something.

I disliked being told today (in my humble opinion) lies about Didcot Sixth Form about how great and different it is from any other place near it. From other students I know that went there, they opinion are the same of mine.

I’m going to be on-line even less on things like Messenger and won’t be on at all on Friday due to a social life. Shocking I know that somebody like me with a… Social life!

If you haven’t got a Oxford Mail with you (where its pg14), luckily its online!

I wasted some money as I brought Return tickets when all I needed was a Single ticket to Stoke. I think I’ll still be able to use it as doesn’t expire till July, so I’ll could visit my sister when she up there training for a job.

I’m not so filthy rich as some people think. I needed a new computer for school work and I needed a MP3 player so I don’t go crazy. Anybody on Skype? I’ve installed a new USB phone on my computer.

As you may noticed I have dodged talking about school as there hasn’t been anything exciting happen apart from handing a fluffy pen to my RE teacher and I was handing out boxes of sweets to people.

I again, had a prefect (!) week. I nearly hurt myself badly when I decided to slide down the stairs rail in the block, it was a good idea at the time until I fell. I find it great that Sean gets me a ice stick with the 20p I gave him but I dislike the Coke flavour.

Maths is so confusing at times, I just couldn’t get the work today. I think it was either the heat or the tiredness of me or maybe even neither? I try giving a reason for everything on this blog and sometimes they might not be a reason to things.

Facebook annoys me. Why they cannot add our school to the list so people under 18 (or is it 16) can join it. I don’t wanna lie about my age though as I like keeping honest as much as I can.

There are some people I really want to talk to on Messenger, I just don’t know if they can’t be brothered to talk any more, can’t be brothered to talk to me, or changed addy.

I will have to get rid of the line spacing on this theme.

After booting it up, I nearly had a heart attack a few times when it was doing the ‘first start up‘ stuff. When that horrible thing finished, I decided to plug in the USB Wifi so I could start browsing the web. It didn’t like it and starting to complaining, long story short.. I got it working after unplugging it and plugging it alots of times. I will do a mega big review of the system in a few days time.

I’m being coming famous it would seem around the school as alot of strangers are saying ‘hello‘ to me and having a chat as well. It is nice but unusual thing to happen to me really.. though I am crap of having a conversation with somebody.

Lee wants a proxy to be made for him, I can do it though I’m too busy with other stuff. Its not that hard to do one for yourself. Just Google ‘proxy generator‘!

Yes, this is the 100th theme change on this site, the old one broke and the coding was rather dodgy.

I really miss XP. I really miss it today as my 8GB Mp3 Player arrived today and I couldn’t add any songs to it due to the player needing that OS or above (hopefully). I say hopefully as the computer that will be arriving will have Vista on it.

I suppose I will have to order a new computer now..

Bugger!

photo credit: James Laurence Stewart

Something I recently discovered whilst peering over people computers at school is a website called Rate my teachers. It is a website that has a database of schools where pupils can rate their teacher.

The main problem with this website is that it doesn’t need to exist due to Ofsted reviewing schools and if you have a problem with a teacher, you can complain to Ofsted. Another problem with this website is that it shows the teacher full name which the teacher may not want random visitors to the site knowing or future employers getting the wrong idea from biased ratings.

Pssk.. If you’re from St Birinus School, Didcot, you’re school listing is here. It hard to find on the website as they spelt things wrong whilst adding to school to their database.

I had my last meeting at the Clockhouse today! It was great to see that I have grained some weight and I’m nearly the ‘normal’ weight instead of being underweight. It wasn’t all about my weight though, it was about general stuff really. Mrs Carter came as well and was glad of my process so far at school, and saying I have improve alot since September when she took over from my old tutor. She also mentioned that Miss Penny was glad of my process and I know about that because when I arrived to her room because of her being cover teacher, she said some really good comments to me! Life is good so far and I’m so much happy than I was lets say, last year?

I think its around 18 days till ‘The Feeling’ gig in Staffordshire. I’m looking forward to it though I think that the idea of meeting people at the other side train station is going to go wrong somehow.

I been thinking about moving to Stoke. That idea has its highs and lows like anything you think about really. One of the highs are that I really like the area. Some of the lows are that why is there so many people moving out of the area?, You cannot move back to the South if you move to North, some of the things that Mrs Carter said about jobs and stuff.

Anyway, lets put that behind me now.. I really want to enjoy the sun and the last day of the holidays but its nearly three and I dunno what to do.

After going to Cineworld yesterday, I returned to find my website hacked. This has happened to me before on my old domain. I don’t think that they are targeting me but the server that I’m on. I hate my host but I’m stuck with them for a year.

I’m really bored today and I rather be at school today because at least I’ll be doing something! I’m really fed up, feel like I’m trapped in this house.

I’m planning to replace my trainers as they don’t have any padding in them so my feet gets damaged all the time. Having no padding was okay for when I went kick boxing but as a trainer I use for PE isn’t a great idea.

My hosting idea didn’t really work so I have decided that it will be closed by the end of the month, so if you’re on it atm please move off it, Sorry. This is due to having around three people on it and no more, its offering free hosting for god sake. Don’t worry if you’re on free blog hosting as that will carry on..

I used to felt that I’m generally the one that now stand there in a group of ‘friends’ and has nothing to say that could relate to the conversation… I’d try and join in bit I feel a fool or small/silly for sayin’ something cuz I thought that it just didn’t fit in. Sometimes I used to just wanna sit in the corner and hide. I don’t feel like that any more with my new group of friends, yes I call them friends, and I’m talking and laughing all the time.

I’m kinda annoyed at Mrs Tedworth (she did my dyslexia support lessons) as she binned all my work of mine. She got annoyed at me for not attending her lessons, even I did try and warn her that I rather be doing important ICT lessons.

I feel sorry for my sister in Keele, she very unwell being sick every second. My best wishes on her getting well soon (as in the end of the day), as she has major exams to do.

I have now sorted my clothes into my draws finaly.. it means they won’t get creased so easily now.

People at school are not very shocked by the fact that I am bisexual and have suddenly erased my boffin status and I have some very great friends which are okay with my sexual status. Also most of the chavs are snogging each other off site out campus anyway. I was thinking that it being a boy school that it would have a large amount of people uncomfortable but no.

Along that you don’t act like a total nob and you don’t try to act differently from everyone else it seems that you don’t get hacked to death.

I had some chips that I stole and a chocolate bar from this sixth former that hangs around with the group I hang around in. She somehow managed to bring the plate out of the cafe which is strange as they normally shout at you if I did it.

I’ve got some updating I’ve got to do with my Maths coursework but apart from that I’m pretty much clear of coursework for a few days. Maybe I be able to watch some TV without having to do some typing during it?

I hate my lack of range with the food I like which is mainly is junk food. After the time wasted going to the doctor to speak about bananas, I decided to just go head in and just randomly pick something I haven’t eaten before and eat it. This is something I haven’t managed to do before because of something going on with brain that makes me feel sick when trying something new.

I hope people like my refreshing different look. I’m also treating my skin with these wried wet pads which is gross after you used them because what was a white turns into black on it. It really makes my skin really really soft.

I have no idea over the fuss over Cineworld is about. Haven’t they been to the movies before? I guess not by the comments I been hearing about the place.

After school today, I’ve got my hair cut and picked up my new glasses. Not only my hair is spiky, I also look smarter in my lovely glasses. They are frameless glasses so I guess I won’t be wearing them during PE, if I do it at all. I dislike doing football all the time with that younger other set.
The website was down for awhile over the past few hours. I’m sorry about this though you haven’t really missed much.

It is one of them things which you wish you voted for.

I’ve got my Technology coursework been covered with orange notes on how I can improve the work. I disagree with half of the notes as there things with expand on blah blah blah. There is only so much that you can talk about on cardboard, unless you’re an expert in the stuff and talk about how its 0.010 inch in thickness.

Napster seems to be very flawed. As I didn’t have any money in my bank account I expected the account to be disabled until I paid them the money, instead you get a reminder that you haven’t paid then allows you to use it as normal. Also they don’t seem to bother when you got more than one account, meaning that you can have a life time amount of free trails.

I really really need to sort out my room or more to the point, the five foot from the ground amount of mess, as its so depressing finding some of you’re stuff wrecked because you stood on it. I also need to clear the smashed glass and plates from the floor as I just stood in some and it hurts like a bitch.

I’m planning to go into Oxford on Thursday afternoon to return some clothes and to have a large Shakeaway.. Chocolate of course!