Posted 18 Feb 2010 — by eddieh
Category Life
I posted this on my Tumblr first and decided that it suited my blog as well. I also like to say that I am sory that I havent been spending much time on here.
Before you get annoyed with this post, I haven’t wrote thinking that I know it all, I just want to note it down for myself for when I am feeling negative again at college. I just hope you realise it depression bringing you down and you just blaming things such as assignments or people in your course. I need to remind myself that I was going though a period that one day I really loved everybody and the next I hated everyone and thought everyone was ignoring me. Anyway..
Two weeks ago was the first time that teachers yelled their heads off at me at the college which was a shock to me. Whilst I don’t approve one of the methods that was classifed as bullying (that the tutor, no surprise being rather friendly from now on), the other methods that didn’t involve attacking or forcing me to write stuff really did make me smell the coffee and somehow was the first step getting me out of this negative and depressing world that I was in.
On the day was a terrible day for me and I was in shock on what happened. I was posting on Facebook statuses that was very woe to me. And I thought that I messed up and couldn’t get back on track. But I went to Disneyland Paris and without intending to, I let go of my negativity there, I also made a promise to myself that I could do this. Every night, I was slightly kept up by thinking how I could do the assignments and when.
And now in the present, its half term and somehow I am up to date with everything. Now even though all the assignments somehow are finished doesn’t mean everything swell for me.
I am dreading doing English when I return back. I fucked it up three times now. Last time was more gutting as I was so close. I hope I can find something in me to get this grade. I know that everyone is judging me and having their eyes me on about this. If I fuck it up again, I will sadden loads including myself. It doesnt help knowing that they are shoving me into a overcrowded group due to the peaceful one not suiting my timetable. I hope things go okay.
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This morning was thirlling. Driving 60 miles an hour down some nearby country roads that had curves. I loved every moment of that lesson. It was the most fun I had since Disneyland Paris. Well in thrill sense. The only boring part was doing some hill starts. I used all the gears during the lesson aswell. Big thumbs up to the driving instructor to trust me to do some of that stuff.
My dad brought me a Sub today from Subway of course. I had the Sub of the day which was the Meatballs with melted cheese. I have to say that was the nicest sub that I have had in awhile though I never had one which has dripped. Once I finished the sub I discovered that there was cheese all over my jeans! It was a pain to clear with the one tissue left in the store. Oh well. Good times. 
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Since the last post I called up the phone insurance company which promptly sent out a brand new phone to me for the old one. I found this rather neat as the phone I had were a refurb meaning I didn’t have any of the wires or charger even. I had to send so many emails to get that charger.
Anyway. Lets talk about Friday. Well, I didn’t have a phone so therefore it ended up meaning that I didn’t have a alarm to wake me up resulting on me oversleeping and waking up 10 mins before the lesson.
Thankfully I kept hold of the postcard the media people gave me which had the tutor number and called her up. She told me that they were in a different room and when I reached the college, I stepped into that room but got a shock when I found it was grannies on computer. I tried explaining I got the wrong room and I was a student but they couldn’t work Word out. I quickly told them about it and dashed out wondering were the class was. I worked it out in the end and managed to caught up with the work.
In the afternoon, it was video production. Gah! I thought I would of loved this subject when I joined the course but the only thing I don’t mind about it is the editing which I still only know the basics of. In the subject, everybody group is making two adverts. Well the adverts I made suck. I mean, come on.. I’m mumbling in the adverts! Then to rub thing into the womb, Tiff and Key flipping join the group which I can’t argue about as Tiff is the girlfriend of the person I’m working with and they done crap all!
Towards the end of the day, they suggest leaving early and as we managed to get away with it last time. I just went along with it as I wasn’t really enjoying being there.
So yeah that was Friday.
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