This week has been okay I guess. I hate how it feels like winter all of a sudden with the dark evenings returning and having the shock of the cold temperature in the face when you step out of the house in the morning. In some ways I prefer it being cold in the morning as I get rather hot by the time I finished my 45 minute walk to college. Just I don’t want the whole day to be freezing as it takes the piss when youre hands get numb and not knowing how many layers to wear.
At some point recently in one of the mornings when it was raining, I got informed by one of the cleaners (that works in the block my lessons are at, which I seem to know well from attending college for a year) that I can use the showers if I wanted to. I’m not sure if I have the courage to use showers which are that public. Firstly I would get paranoid that somebody steals my bag or something whilst using one, then I’m thinking how I have no pride in showing my body to anyone, then I thought that it would be embarrassing if the cleaner walks in whilst I was using it. I knew that their was showers there but I didn’t think I was allowed to use them and thought it was only for the sports folks to use as the sports hall is located near to them.
On Tuesday, I was really relaxed and chilled out for a change. I attended the first bit of my first lesson but the rest of that lesson I hanged outside with some of the other peeps in media on the grass nearby to a shop and in the town centre. It was admittedly the first time I been to town during a break time. I felt like picking the litter up that the people in the group was dropping but didn’t want to be seen as dork so I just had to be disappointed silently. But apart from that it was first time I been calm around with them certain folks. The only thing that annoyed me that they nearly made me late for the next lesson which I wouldn’t of been amused about if I was. I like having a good reputation with the tutors as it means I can get more help and trust from them.
Over the past few nights I been chatting with a guy called Mac. I hope he doesn’t mind me including his name, but its not like I’m saying anything bad. I’m amazed how much we can talk with each other till its the next day and agree with things. He has made my evening less boring and he good to talk things with. So if he does read this, I would to say thank you for listening and responding to me. 
This afternoon I went to the gym for the first time in ages. And it was kick in the arse for me to go as firstly it was a important because I had gym review appointment (which means they check how I’m doing and change my routine) and because I managed to miss or not been able to make the past appointments I made. So I put the effort to go in and even packed some suitable clothing in my bag on my way out to college. Anyway, he asks what I think of the current routine and I say that I’ve got bored of doing the exercise bike to which he asks, what do you want to do instead as you need to do 10 minutes of cardio? So I had visions of using the trendmill.
So I said I liked to do some running and we walked to the trendmill I’m so keen of using. I have used one before but not in a proper running mode way. So he tells me how to set it up, but it gets to the point when he dials in the effort mode. It out of 10. He presses 6. So I was thinking to myself after pressing the quick start when I was ready, this isn’t as hard as it looks as it wasn’t that fast. But as I was doing a program, the machine bleeped and suddenly going faster and faster. I managed to do the whole program but there was times I thought my feet wouldn’t keep up with it.
I went on to do my normal routine, but the weights got increased up on various things which is a good thing as it means I’m getting stronger. My leg strength has improved the most but I’m not surprised walking on a daily basic. I got to last part of my routine which normally is a plank. But I never been able to do them how you supposed to do it. So I’m now doing crunches which will hopefully means my stomach will be looking fine by the time I go on the Disneyland trip again.
