When I go up to Stoke-on-trent I always feel refreshed and clean. I think it because I go to a place where I don’t care what people judgements of me are or that I meet people I don’t meet often slash never again. But also when I go up there, I have more thinking space. I sometimes don’t have anyone to chat to, so I have a brainstorm to myself.
As part of one of the many hard thinking sessions I had whilst up in Stoke, I realise that there some things that I used to do no longer fit in with my new lifestyle I now seem to be changing to. My college grades are doing alright but I’m not putting as much effort as I could be putting into it. I realised now that the effort I’m putting in to writing blog posts could be better used with writing essays and the such.
The other thing which I thought about which scared me is that the information I’m handing out on this blog isn’t safe and also means that random people I don’t want anything to be involved with is reading about my life. That isn’t good.
Yet another point is that my mates read this blog which isn’t bad but it has gotten to the point that I can’t mention things as part of a conversation as they already read it on line. I don’t feel secure that people read my life as a book anymore and I want to close that open door.
I don’t know what this means for this blog then. I suppose what this means is that it won’t get regularly updated as it once did. This could also mean that the content may change to something different. I just think that when it gotten to the point where you are upset when you viewership for the day has dropped by one that it isn’t no longer a healthy activity to do.
This blog isn’t all negative though. I changed as a person reflecting on the past and being able to see what I did wrong. It improved my writing skills which has helped with college. If the 2006 posts wasn’t deleted, you would see a very noticeable difference. It has also meant that i was able to tell people things I would of never had the guts to say in real life.
This isn’t the end of the blog. It just the end of what the current content is. I haven’t got the time or effort to be active blogger or webmaster anymore. It doesn’t appeal to me now. I loved blogging and to a point i still do but I don’t love what the current effects of the blog is.