Posted 18 Feb 2010 — by eddieh
Category Life
I posted this on my Tumblr first and decided that it suited my blog as well. I also like to say that I am sory that I havent been spending much time on here.
Before you get annoyed with this post, I haven’t wrote thinking that I know it all, I just want to note it down for myself for when I am feeling negative again at college. I just hope you realise it depression bringing you down and you just blaming things such as assignments or people in your course. I need to remind myself that I was going though a period that one day I really loved everybody and the next I hated everyone and thought everyone was ignoring me. Anyway..
Two weeks ago was the first time that teachers yelled their heads off at me at the college which was a shock to me. Whilst I don’t approve one of the methods that was classifed as bullying (that the tutor, no surprise being rather friendly from now on), the other methods that didn’t involve attacking or forcing me to write stuff really did make me smell the coffee and somehow was the first step getting me out of this negative and depressing world that I was in.
On the day was a terrible day for me and I was in shock on what happened. I was posting on Facebook statuses that was very woe to me. And I thought that I messed up and couldn’t get back on track. But I went to Disneyland Paris and without intending to, I let go of my negativity there, I also made a promise to myself that I could do this. Every night, I was slightly kept up by thinking how I could do the assignments and when.
And now in the present, its half term and somehow I am up to date with everything. Now even though all the assignments somehow are finished doesn’t mean everything swell for me.
I am dreading doing English when I return back. I fucked it up three times now. Last time was more gutting as I was so close. I hope I can find something in me to get this grade. I know that everyone is judging me and having their eyes me on about this. If I fuck it up again, I will sadden loads including myself. It doesnt help knowing that they are shoving me into a overcrowded group due to the peaceful one not suiting my timetable. I hope things go okay.
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This is the day after Ultimate Events and I’m still feeling the effects of it by having a sore throat and feeling dazed so this is going to be a shortie.
I had to wake up so early at around 5:30am to be able to get up and travel to the meeting point where the mini bus will arrive to pick everybody up. The people I was travelling with mainly was from a baptist youth group thingy and therefore didn’t know many of them. It was okay though as everybody got on.
We managed to arrive at Alton Towers at a better time than last year due to setting off earlier. The rides that I managed to get on was Air, Nemesis, Congo River Rapids, and the boat River Bank Eye Spy ride which was strangely enjoyable but mainly cause we nearly tipped the boat over with some good farm noises. This was good that I managed this many as normally UE means that the queues are wild. I prefer the new skyride as it been replaced with new carriages.
The live music in the evening was fantastic with the highlights for me being YFriday and certainly Kutless. I liked some of Superchick set but I felt like it was cheesy at times. I did feel bad for them when there was somebody behind me yelling to them to get off. I didn’t go the gym this week but the amount I jumping and hand waving must of made up for this.
So yeah.. good times! 
Cheers everybody again for making the day so fabulous for me and extra thanks for the people running this trip, dropping me off going out of their way. (Y)
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I am quite chuffed with myself today. I woke up before my alarm clock, had a shower that lasted less than the usual 10mins, and to arrive at college early. However I realised how crappy the college is with exams today.
When I arrived to my only lesson at college, my tutor told me I had a exam in a moment which totally shocked and confused me as I wasn’t informed of any exam that was before June. So I went down to check what was happening to be told that I didn’t have one. When I did go upstairs they were sure I had one as it was on their list. After meeting Kev again he went to my tutor to correct her. How unprofessional that was.
The lesson was a drag as I didn’t have much to do. I was bored stiff throughout the lesson but was entertained by helping people out with Photoshop as I understood it enough to. As soon it was finished, I shot out of the room and dashed to the town centre.
From there I went to my gym after eating a iced bun to boost my energy levels. Felt strange changing at the gym into different clothing as I’m paranoid of the older people as I’m really young compared to everyone else. I couldn’t find my file as I wasn’t there for weeks and it turned out it got put into naughty pile. I hate how they got a clipart of the devil on the label of the naughty pile.
I feel worn out now though.
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