When I go up to Stoke-on-trent I always feel refreshed and clean. I think it because I go to a place where I don’t care what people judgements of me are or that I meet people I don’t meet often slash never again. But also when I go up there, I have more thinking space. I sometimes don’t have anyone to chat to, so I have a brainstorm to myself.
As part of one of the many hard thinking sessions I had whilst up in Stoke, I realise that there some things that I used to do no longer fit in with my new lifestyle I now seem to be changing to. My college grades are doing alright but I’m not putting as much effort as I could be putting into it. I realised now that the effort I’m putting in to writing blog posts could be better used with writing essays and the such.
The other thing which I thought about which scared me is that the information I’m handing out on this blog isn’t safe and also means that random people I don’t want anything to be involved with is reading about my life. That isn’t good.
Yet another point is that my mates read this blog which isn’t bad but it has gotten to the point that I can’t mention things as part of a conversation as they already read it on line. I don’t feel secure that people read my life as a book anymore and I want to close that open door.
I don’t know what this means for this blog then. I suppose what this means is that it won’t get regularly updated as it once did. This could also mean that the content may change to something different. I just think that when it gotten to the point where you are upset when you viewership for the day has dropped by one that it isn’t no longer a healthy activity to do.
This blog isn’t all negative though. I changed as a person reflecting on the past and being able to see what I did wrong. It improved my writing skills which has helped with college. If the 2006 posts wasn’t deleted, you would see a very noticeable difference. It has also meant that i was able to tell people things I would of never had the guts to say in real life.
This isn’t the end of the blog. It just the end of what the current content is. I haven’t got the time or effort to be active blogger or webmaster anymore. It doesn’t appeal to me now. I loved blogging and to a point i still do but I don’t love what the current effects of the blog is.
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Posted 18 Feb 2009 — by eddieh
Category Abingdon
I have travelled up and been in Stoke since Sunday as its half term. Yay!
I supposed to be doing some college work whilst I’m up here but I keep getting distracted by fun things that I can do more easily up here like go shopping or badly doing radio shows. I will live to regret it though when i comes Saturday when I be panicking and rushing work.
The internet in this house is dodgy to say the least, well the wifi is. I went into the control panel but the crappy BT Home Hub is way too simple even in the Advance so I couldn’t do what I wanted to do. Oh well.
I’m writing this blog post on a Mac which is a first. I never been on a modern mac till now and its strange whilst exciting. I’m slowly figuring things out on it and I can see why people are Mac fan boys now. The word press control panel mixes well with the whole Mac look..
I tried to go swimming today however the both times I tired (first alone and second with housemates), they weren’t open. This council sucks at somethings, I slowly love Vale when I’m over here.
I did another gym induction over here so when I visit Stoke I can do gym. Its a good logistic isn’t it. I joined the Keele gym and I’m not use to space as the Abingdon gym uses the most out of the small space it has. This Keele gym also have more modern models of the the equipment. Only fault I have with it is that they lost my form this morning however they let me go in and they found it by the end of the session. Its all good.
Anyway I better get off this Mac before I get addicted to it. I just want to stroke it and admire it. 
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I’m currently watching the X factor and with the housemates sitting on the floor to eat Thai. Well I am not eating Thai because I don’t want to look like a fool if I don’t like it and I can’t hold chopsticks. I hardly can hold a pen so being told its like holding two pens is alittle bit silly. They decided that they doing a Come Dine With Me style thing and they recording the cooking so they can cut it all together. I want to eat some fish fingers and chips but I feel I look a tad out of place and I feel embarrassed by my food diet. I am sooo going to eat loads of stuff I never tried before this week.
I feel my single relationship status when I see other people cuddling and being romantic in general. I miss I am so glad that I haven’t added many people from my college as some of them would be surpized with some of the stuff on it. I been thinking how odd and sometimes painful it is still meeting up and being friends that you no longer hooked up with and seeing them snog and hug someone else. Dan that is, I so wish I blogged more about him.
I haven’t seen Megan in ages and she only lives behide the house of mine. That another person I went out with however with her I think I made her have a great hate for me. I don’t know why, maybe cause I didn’t feel much love for her. I never kissed with her. I did offer to go out again with her and she was like, fuck off.
Anyways, my fingers are hurting already as I’m writing this on a small keyboard of a Acer One. I nearly paniced as the wifi stopped working after a upgrade but a backport sorted the problems out. Haha, I said backport, I’m a proper geek.
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I went to Oxford Uni Press today. it was rather good as I got to look at some real printed books from decades ago, and the such as a real press machine which was made of heavy metal. Some of the books I held cost more than you thought they would of costed. It was a better alternative to writing loads on prints in some ways however I don’t have any notes from the trip which makes it more differcult for when I write things up.
James, Micheal, and me was at standing up as all the seats was taken up when we were waiting for bus when a chavett (which is a teen mum) whacks her pram into my feet. She woke me up dammit.. She asks if she could get pass even though she could anyway. I mutter to myself ‘No you cant’ thinking she wouldn’t hear me but I said it too loudly. I am a baddass.
This meant she got pissed off at me and I nearly risked getting stabbed or something like a slap. i thought she would just carry on walking on but she stopped infront of me and starting talking quite fast. I thought if I just stared down and didnt give her eye contact would mean that she knew I wasn’t starting a fight. I think it worked..
College has really changed my behaviour alot.. At school I hardly swore and was the teacher pet for everything. Being a school kid you could get away with something like that like I always did when i caught the bus. not without a uniform it would seem.
Eugh! i got to carry on writing a ten page eassy. lovely..
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